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I love him༎ຶ‿༎ຶ

I always think of him every night

Why is it so hard to love a person who doesn't even exist?

I mean, they're charming af, handsome af

Not like those men who exist (they are also charming and handsome but I think fictional is more charming o _ o)

*Goes in Google

*Searching how to hug fictional men in real life

Google: "You can't hug them dear( ꈍᴗꈍ)"

Me: "okeh•́ ‿ ,•̀"

Google: "But you can find your Truelove by downloading dating apps"

Me: "I don't want them"

If I atleast will had a bf I want a long haired dude looks like a softie but actually a baddie and a psycho (I just can't... my type of boys and yaoi comics is so ARGHH!)

I want them to be so In love with me to the part where they'll kill a person just to get me, that's so romantic for me(◡ ω ◡)

To the part where they're gonna sacrifice themselves just to save me HOW ROMANTIC

To the part where they'll lock me up just to keep me

if you think my type is BXPQNXOQKXKP

think what you want my sickness is uncurable

I will love the monsters who show up when I'm in sleep paralysis

I'm not alone cause my shadow is always beside me

I have a mix feelings I also don't know why maybe because my loneliness

I start talking to myself, will I be pretty? will I be rich?

what would I be when I grew up? will I be just like the people who dies because of depression? I don't wanna be like that

But before I die I wanna be normal

a normal person who can go out and play freely

had a tons of freind, just because I have so followers doesn't mean I have many friends already I'm just giving them coins to follow back

in this world money matters and beauty matters

So don't expect that you will be a successful person but with an ugly face just like in those comics

even if they're nerd they can still be pretty because they're just drawing

you? are you a drawing? no right?

idk if I'm being creepy or not

I have mixed feelings

don't know what to do

people always leave me BUT I told you my shadow is always beside me

in midnight my sleep paralysis monsters are watching me :)

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.I don't have the energy to say goodbye. still wanna talk with you but it seems

Iike I'm too boring for you sorry I can't be a good person just like others.

I'm not popular either so I don't think anyone will know what I'm suffering (◍•ᴗ•◍)