I was only 7 years old when my mother died, but it was the hardest thing to get over with my whole life
7 years has past since then but my heart still has a void that cannot be completely healed...
One day my father called for me..
“Milla get down stairs, I have something to tell you” my dad said
“I’ll be right there dad!” I quickly responded
As I was walking downstairs I quickly notice three people waiting for me, two boys and one lady.
As I was curious for a few seconds but got a hint of what he was gonna tell me
“Milla I-“ my father said before I quickly interrupted him
“What is it father, why are there three people right there...don’t tell me..” I said with a shallow voice
“Milla I’m sorry but...” my father said as he quickly gets nervous
“I-I CANT BELIEVE IT! I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU LOVE MOM AND ONLY HER, HOW COULD YOU DO THIS DAD?!” I said while holding back my tears
As I was shouting, the people behind my father was shivering and was really nervous
When I saw them shivering I began to realize what I just said, I quickly go upstairs after that...without even knowing who the people are behind my father
I was so mad that I skipped dinner and went to bed early and cried myself to sleep
The next day when I woke up, I began to question if all of that was a dream and went downstairs..and to my surprise they were all right there sitting at the dining room
My father was shocked at me because of how red and puffy my eyes where
My father then said to me...
“Milla...I’m sorry that I didn’t tell you this sooner..it was all my fault on what happened yesterday, if only I told you this sooner then...maybe you would have prepared yourself” is what my father said to me with a worried expression
I began to realize what really happened yeaterday
“Dad I’m so sorry for what happened last night! I didn’t mean to yell at you! I-it was all because I was too shock I promise!” I said to my dad with a sad expression
“Let’s forget about what happened yesterday sweetie, I wanna introduce you to your new siblings and...to your new mother” he looked at me while beginning to hesitate if he said the wrong word
I looked at him with a soft expression and said
“Hello, nice to meet you..my name is Milla and I’m going to be your new sibling!” I said with a fake smile while trying to hide my anger and sadness I felt at that moment
I glanced at my new “mother”and to my surprise she was actually quite beautiful and well-taught which made me more mad because I could still not believe that my dad bought another woman home except for my mother and relatives
While looking at my new step-mom I didn’t know that my new step-brothers were actually looking at me
My father told me that we went to the same school, we all got to the car and went to school
While my father was driving, I was quite mad that we went to the same school, because I’m not only mad at their mom but to them as well...surely they don’t accept this...right?
After my father dropped us to school I quickly walked when suddenly my brother said
“If you hate or don’t like us..then it’s fine..but please do not look at our mom as if it was her fault all of this has happened” said my older brother Cedric
He was a year above me and looks really gentle...as his words hit through me, I was shocked because of what he said
“W-what are you talking about?” I said while to them but quickly stuttered
“Crap!” I said to myself while feeling nervous
And then I quickly walked towards my classroom
After school while walking to the entrance, I saw my brothers waiting there
“What are you doing here brothers?” While faking a smile
“We were waiting for you...and please don’t force yourself to do things” my brother said to me with a smile
I quickly said to myself “how..how did he know I was forcing myself...even though It looks like I was smiling for real” my tears almost began to fall because nobody..not even my dad knew I have been faking a smile all this time...to look alright when I was actually about to cry
As I was thinking to myself I quickly forgotten that my brothers were right in front of me
“R-right..” I said to him
As I was looking at him, my father told us to get in the car
When we went home, the lady was waiting right there
“How was school today?” She said with a soft voice
I began to think about my mom that time, when I’m home from school she would always say those words to me with a smile..and I would always hug her
My heart began to ache as I remember those painful memories, then I began to say through my mind “why..why are you treating me like your child..why is my heart aching so bad? It hurts so bad!”
I quickly said “I’m heading upstairs”
I rushed upstairs and locked my door to my room, my tears started to fall and my chest hurts a lot..
“Is this how it feels like to have a mother again? To feel the love of a mom?... I guess I can’t tell since then when my mother died when I was seven...”
That night I dreamt about my mom
“Come here sweetie!” My mother said with a gentle look
“M-mother?” I said to her while hugging her
“Mother...father, he got a new wife...I don’t want that...I DON’T WANT HER TO REPLACE YOU!” I said to my mother while crying
“Sweetie...your father and you...you both have to move on..it’s all in the past now..so please sweetie...do not lock your heart...open it to your new family, and remember that I’ll always be watching you..even though I’m not there” my mother said while slowly fading away
“Mother don’t leave me again!” I began to cry really hard
I woke up and saw my brothers at my side with a worried look
Without thinking i quickly Hugged them while crying to my heart’s content
After a while I calmed down and realized I was hugging my brothers, I quickly let go
“Does it feel better now?” My brother Harrison said to me with a soft smile
“What do you mean?” I said to him with a curious look
“Sometimes it’s better to cry to feel better...it’s not good to keep it to yourself..sometimes you just need a shoulder to lean on and a friend you can talk too” said my other brother
“....I don’t know what it feels like to have a father to be honest..since our father died when we were very young..I’ve always been jealous of others who have a dad on their side, so when I found out mom’s gonna marry another person..I can’t help but feel really happy cause I wanna know how it feels like to have someone by your side that will make you really happy and will comfort you when your really sad...that’s until I met you...I saw your gaze through my mom, that gaze that says how hurt you’ve been all along...and that you don’t want another person except your mom to be by your dad’s side..to be honest I was a little shock at first..but I got over it because..it was our mom’s happiness..and I wanna see mom happy again”he said to me with a smile on his face
That smile and words that he said pierced right through my heart because..he might have a more sad and awful chidhood than me
I hugged my brothers and talk to them all night long..it was a feeling I have forgotten for a long time, a feeling of being loved..and talking to someone that is willing to listen to your whole story even though its so long..
The other day I was smiling really brightly, when I looked at my step-mom..I knew at that moment that it was the time I let go of the past and accept that I have a new family now
I smiled at her, while she was really shock and was about to tear up while my father was really happy at what he just saw me do..
Eversince then..I began to talk with my new family more and realize that they are not actually bad..they’re just like me who was also yearning for love❤️
I’m sorry mom but..I think I’m starting to love my new family...I’m sorry for what I’ve said but..I hope you’ll accept and love them too, I hope your also doing alright there mother..cause I am❤️
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