I love you.. But you don't know.
I admire you for so-long.. But I remained unnoticeable. On a vast of crowd I'm here all along. Looking from afar, I hold a banner cheering with your name on. right at corner I say more than a thousand times. Be safe, be well, I'll always be here.
I'm a fan, nothing but a fan. My love basically mean nothing to you, just like any other I love you's. But, let me tell you a secret.. It's because I had to live. You're not even trying but you became my life. When the world was hard on me.. to the extent of leaving the earth with my remaining dignity. Back when you were still a nobody. You told me.. "Will you jump and let your brain splatter on the ground? Or Get your bones to break a hundred pieces? I thought you were trying to convince not to do it. It's clear that I'm about to jump off and I already made up my mind. Then you told me.." If your sure to die, then let's die together." for a moment, I thought you were insane, and acted like your about to jump off before me. Just like that, out of the blue I had to rescue you. My feet and yours are back to the ground. "Your crazy, I got here first and this is my place to die, why would you want to die with me?" I asked, and the look on your face was as cold as Ice "what should I do? If you die here alone, I become the murderer, If I die here alone you become the murderer. To be put in jail is not on my choice, so I'd rather jump with you." that cold tone I'll never forget. You threaten me with your life so that I live.
A Year have past and I saw you having the best of your time. I had my life back and it's all thanks to you. From then on I vowed to always be loyal just like any other fan.
One day I missed your concert for not feeling well. But then the next day I saw you standing right at my door and told me. "Don't tell me after so many years you still plan to die on your own?" right then and there. The man in front of me who's complaining about not coming to see him is again blaming me.
"You did not come to see me, so I missed my steps and hit the wrong notes. You almost ruined my concert because you weren't around!" you were cold. But it warms me at the same time. "So you noticed I wasn't there?" I asked. "You dumb woman! how do you expect me to not notice you? Since the beginning your always there, you may be in the corner but you always stay. The first to come and the last to leave. Only dumb people like you wouldn't notice." I cried a tear not because you called me dumb. I was happy because I knew my hard work has been paid off.
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