Have you ever feel being dumped like a waste?
The word cruel is not even enough to describe him.
The man I used to loved that I thought who loves me back, uses me for his own victory.
“No…No… Vin please help me Vin!” I shouted in a hoarse voice while struggling.
“You have such a nice skin. Should I thank you to Mr. Lin for giving me such a young beauty?” My tears flow in my cheek in fear as these old man touches me; I fell disgust and scared watching Calvin turn his back on me.
“You think he will help you, he already sold you to me. So be good might as well enjoying our time!!” the old man said with a rapist look. I don’t know how to respond on what I just heard; I can’t even let out a single word.
“Mr. Lin says you still haven’t touch by him, do you know it’s good news your first time won’t be not that bad, don’t worry you’ll love what we are going to do.”
“L… Let me go…. Vin!” Calling his name is all I can do, trying to take away the hand of the old man off me.
“Mr. Feng enjoy. I’ll take my leave now, looking forward for our happy cooperation!” It breaks me into pieces hearing his cold voice sounds he doesn’t care at all.
“Hey babe let’s go!” the last word I heard seeing the girl in bland, she kisses Calvin and hold him tight the same thing with Calvin before the door finally closed. I laugh in my mind painfully, looks like god is on my side.
He used me as a bargain, I almost chock with my own saliva for an endless shouting and pleading for him to help me. I am weak for drinking a wine that I did not know has a drug on it.
Morning on the same day….
“Ley only you could help me; Mr. Feng wants to have chat with you before he will sign contract with me.”
“Vin, you promise last night were having a dinner tonight!”
I said in disappointment, how many times it is when he always canceled our time together just for his business. I do not want to be his burden that is why I always keep my mouth shut and agree on what he says, that’s my way of showing how much I love him even sometimes it makes me feel being left in a dark room. I can ignore everything just to make him fell I am on his side.
“Love sorry, can we skip and reschedule it next day this transaction is very important for the company please love!” he said and wrap his arms around me, I sigh and hold his arms slowly facing him. It’s been four years when he started building his own company and it’s been our five years of love.
“Okay, this time would be the last you’ll cancel our dinner okay!”
“Thank you love you’re the best!” He said as he kisses me on my cheek, I smiled. I was about to put on his necktie when I realized he don’t want me to do those stuff ever since he started his business. Our relationship has limitation the day we become lovers we swear to each other to not to go beyond the limit not until we get married….
“C…. Calvin you are such a jerk! “I whisper.
Because of anger I manage to get lose from that old man, and now his fellows are after me.
My tears make the way blurrier, and the impact of the drug makes my balance shakier as I run to the hallway of the hotel. I use the stairs thinking they can catch me if I use the elevator.
“Faster get that damn woman!”
I manage to run from fifty to sixty floor, I do not know why I climb up instead of going down.
In the hallway my vision becomes more blurrier than lately, that drugs might be lost in consciousness.
“There she is… Damn that woman she thinks she can get away!”
“Calvin, I don’t know you anymore, I hate you!” I othered in myself while shading a tear.
And in a second everything went black.
“I promise you to be your only hero!”
“You will be the only girl I will loved!”
“Ley you know at first that I can not revel our relationship, they may use you against me!”
“Ley I know you can Understand me!”
“Ley I promise I will marry you!”
“Ley after I climb higher, I would tell the world you’re mine.”
“We will build a big house!”
“Ley you promised me you will help me, right?”
Tonight, of all those words he said to me, I wonder which is true. I give him everything I have, money, support, care, and love. I was so blind and ignorant that I did not see his other side, I thought I have known him so well, but I guess I was wrong. All my sacrifices turned in vain as I watch him standing on the top of his dream and here, I am crying in pain.
