I couldn't wait, I wanted to sleep forever.
I wanna die, why can't I just do it?
Was I afraid? Or there's something I still wished for?
So stupid, why can't I done that wish? Why don't I know what it is?
I'm impatient for death, don't wanna have another day is this world.
It's cruel and crowded by pain, I don't like it here.
I wanted to be alone, but not to be this lonely
There's so many of them, lot's of them who can destroy me.
What's use living here? Why did I even live if I was this useless?
I couldn't handle it
I give up
It's too much
Everyting has gone too far.
Gone too far from bullying and destroying me
Those happy endings, they're all fantasies
Their all Fake
They kept my hope too high, it disappointed me.
If they were this bad
I shouldn't have said that I was blessed
I shouldn't have said "I love you" to them
If in the end, they'll turn their back and leave.
Is it so hard to stay? Was there something wrong with me?
Is there something that Im doing you dont like?
Why can't you just tell me?
Why prefer to stay silent and just curse me?
Stupid, idiot, useless, ugly
Is that all you guys can say?
Can't you be more nice and say something sweet?
No, I don't think so.
No one will ever listen to me
They prefer destroying minds and hearts than fixing them.
There's no one I can trust here.
I wanna hurry and lost my consciousness in this hospital bed.
Sleep forever and in peace.
