i was 15 or 16 when, i realized that i am in love with one of my senior..
well at 15, being in love would meant that you will do every possible thing to just see them or talk to them..
my friends would singnal me when ever we were about to cross each others path..
so this continued for 2 years and he was now going to change his school..
so after collecting my whole strength i decided to confess to him... soo
i went on social media and with this feeling of excitement, nervousness i friend requested him..
it took him just an hour or so to accept it but for me that hour was like a standstill...
anyways before that i had not used fb so it was my first time...
he accepted my request and i was on cloud nine telling my friends about it...
and you know that at that age if the person you like just pass a very normal social smile, it would meant to you, actually more to your friends that ,he is into you...
so my friends just elevated the cloud height i was on....
then comes the stupidest part.... i wrote,
"" I LIKE YOU AND I HAVE BEEN LIKING YOU FOR VERY LONG TIME NOW... CAN WE GO OUT. ""
on his TIMELINE . rather then in personal message. 🤦♀
i tought i wrote it ,in message... so this way whole school got to know about it and i was embarrassed like helll.
can you imagine my situation , i was thinking of dropping from the school... but what would i tell my parents??
so after sone days i went to school, whole school was gossiping and i came to know he had deleted that post...
during the lunch break suddenly he came to me, are you ok????
and my heart was about to explode and i was blushing like hell.
dont you think it would had been better to just let me know first?? he asked.
and i somehow told him that i thought i asked you in message... but
he really laughed so hard...
and i was thinking to kill myself at that moment and besides my friends were passing so obvious and stupid looks to me... i felt like whole world was watching me...
so for his reply to my confession ,,
He turned me down"😔😔😔
... and after like 4-5 years i still domt think i can face him.... and my heart still skips a beat when i see him.. and i do eveything to possible hide from him...
