it was in 2010 when I first saw that boy. He was cute had a Korean hairstyle and was literally looking cute and clean. I really found him admirable.i guess that was my love at first sight . my life changed from what it used to be .I tried to changed myself to look good infront of him. I started caring for him I would think about him and smile mysteriously, I never was too negative in mind and never imagined too that I wasn't capable of loving him I was just a girl at grade 4 who was simply loving a boy secretly and honestly. this past days I wasn't even intelligent and hardworking my parents used to worry about my academic results. years passed by but I never stopped loving that boy for me he was someone hard to see and impossible to get but I didn't wished him to love me back I was just okay with myself loving him alone as long as he allows me too. somehow I guess he knew I had a crush on him, but he pretended asif he doesn't know about it.
7 years of my honest feeling towards him, I still continued loving someone who doesnt know how much he used to mean to me. That year my parent divorced and I went with my dad to continue to study class 11 and 12 in hinghschool. I lost contact with him. I was sad because there was no chance for me to see him walking down from my house as cool as always . I always wondered whether he knew I used to stalk at him. starting from that I never meet him. after two years my result wasn't good so I came back to repeat wherw I saw him attending the same school. I was happy but not much as my feelings were down on him since he holds different girlfriend. that day though I didn't have feelings I just literally wanted to let go of him and my feelings forever so I told him how much I wanted for him for past 10 years . he says he understands how I feels and ask me to never give up on one's feelings but soonafter I caught him dating another girl right infront of me. he said he know that I used to have feelings on him. fem that day I knew he never really understood how I feel . so I gave up .
