"Why are you doing this? Why are you being like this?"
I can see fear in their eyes, frightened like rats chased by a cat. And I like it. The faces they make are hilarious. I can't help myself but to smirk because of amusement.
"What? Why am I being like this?" I asked. No one answered as they lowered their heads.
"Oh c'mon, say it!" I screamed which caused them to flinch. "A monster, is what you think of me, right? Yes! I'm a monster that you created. Shouldn't you be proud of yourselves?"
My laugh echoed inside the closed gymnasium. The kind of laugh you don't want to hear in the middle of the night. They're scared, I can feel it. For their cowardness feeds me, making me want to scare them more.
"L-let's talk this out, please. What happened to you my beloved daughter?" My mother spoke, pleading, trying to calm me down.
"Your beloved what?" I laughed once more. "When did I even become your daughter? Because honestly, I didn't felt it. And oh, don't ask me what happened, ask yourselves what you did instead."
Whispers clouded the place as they try to figure out what I mean. We're currently in the school's gymnasium for our batch's graduation ceremony. Then I came to ruin it. Well, they ruined my life, I think that's just fair.
"You treated me like a clown and a machine that feels nothing, not as your own daughter. You cursed me, hurted me with words and physically, you caused me scars. Only because I'm not as good as my damned sister! Only because she's way smarter and prettier than me. If I have a big brain that might impress you, or a goddamn high grades, maybe then you'll accept me as your own kin. But no! For I am a stupid shit in this world!" I said in gritted teeth.
"Ms. Cortes, calm down. We can sort this out-"
"Sort what Mr. Limero? You don't tell me what to do at this moment. Because I am no longer your student that strips in front of you in exchange for grades," I said bravely. There's no point in hiding the truth anymore.
Everyone gasped as Mr. Limero's eyes widened. "You have no proof for that!"
"Proof? You really want to embarass yourself?" I took a remote from my pocket and pressed random buttons before a video started playing on the projector in front.
A video of me and him in a room, doing a miracle. I know I shouldn't have done it, I should've look for other options. But what else do I have in a world that turned its back on me? Nothing.
I stopped the video, I cannot watch. It's disgusting and creeping me out.
"Are you not yet satisfied?" I asked.
"And why would you even take videos of it? Are you sure that you didn't do it willingly?" Some girl shouted from behind. It turns out that it was Payne, one of my friends, but not anymore.
Someone who also hides her rotten smell behind her good looks. "I have my reasons. Besides, I'm not like you Payne. I'm not a whore."
Her shocked face sure is priceless. I didn't let her speak anymore as another and different videos play. Where she enters a motel with a middle aged man, her having sex with different people including the teachers. How did I found these out? Well, I have my ways.
"I don't betray friends and leave them behind like trash once they're useless. I'm not a whore and a backstabber like you," I added.
"Fuck you Eris! Really fuck you!" She shouted and cursed me. But she can't do anything other than that. She can't hurt me.
Silence surrounded the place. Like a storm has just happened. These people ruined my life, it's only fair for me to ruin their's.
"You're not like this Eris, stop this." Aaron finally stepped in. My beloved Aaron.
I sweetly smiled at him, but I think it still looks scary for he hesitated walking towards me for a moment. "Not like this? Why? What am I like to you?"
"You're a sweet girl who doesn't even know how to hurt others. That's what you are to me," he confidently said which makes me want to puke.
"Lies," I whispered. "It's all fucking lies! Me? I'm nothing but a toy for you. Playing with me whenever you want, breaking my heart again and again!"
He looked at me with apologizing eyes. The eyes I want to gouge out and have as a dessert.
"You only need me when you have projects you don't want to do, assignment, reports and even your goddamn thesis! I sure am a sweet girl for you because this stupid girl doesn't want to lose you," I said as my tone of voice lowers.
Everyone in this batch knows how I was bullied and trampled on, and all they did was stare with pity in their eyes. Some even know the truth for I trusted them with it, only to spread it and to start a rumor.
How my teachers look down on me because I'm that kind of student who struggles only to have good grades, how my parents despise me for I can't be someone they can be proud of, how my friends turn their backs on me because I am useless, even my own boyfriend.
This school is nothing but hell. Where I had to spend four years of my life to suffer. Education my ass, I only learned how fucked up life is, nothing but that.
I raised a knife near my throat, planning to make all these people my witnesses.
"Stop Eris! You'll hurt Kira's body!" Dad shouted from the side.
Oh, yes. I totally forgot that this isn't my body. And if I'll commit suicide, it'll be the second time around. I've been residing in this body for a month or so that I almost forgot that I'm already dead and is only a ghost in a shell. Good thing no one doubted my acting skills until this day. Which is how I was able to prepare all this. A grandiose farewell party for them.
"Why do I have to care about her? When she just watched me die like that? When she acted and ignored me as if I'm a ghost all this time?" I said as I felt the knife digging in Kira's skin. I have no idea how this still hurt when it's not my body.
Kira was there, I know she was. For her emotionless face was the last thing I saw before I ended everything. As blood flows from my neck, series of memories appeared in my head.
"Dad, stop it! No!" She screamed as dad touched her private parts.
"I want to die," she whispered to herself as the people around her looks at her with disgust.
"You dumb kid!" A teacher shouted before slapping her left cheek.
"You're useless!" Different faces and voices filled my mind. But these words weren't for me, they were for Kira. For my half sister that I hated for a long time because she was perfect, a perfect doll for society's eyes rather.
Tears streamed down my face as I look at my father with loath and disgust.
"You... you violated Kira. You bastard!" I screamed and was about to run towards him when I heard another voice inside my head.
"No, don't do it. Kill me instead. Let's die together." It's her voice. "It's my last wish. Do it for me."
She wanted me to kill her, to kill her body. And her crying image appeared before me. Begging me to do what she asks of me. It's the first time I saw her cry for she was always expressionless. Those are the tears of joy and sorrow.
"I know everything that happened to you, but I didn't try to talk, for I don't know how to comfort someone who's been through the same thing as me. And I know that whatever I say will not change your decisions. I'm sorry," Kira said as her eyes are full of regrets. I smiled at her. She's right, I will do it anyways, with or without her words.
And for the last time, I looked at the people that surrounds us. "Right here, at this moment, you all are murderers and witnesses for our death. This is not a graduation ceremony, treat this as a farewell ceremony for two girls who shares the same fate."
And everything, was pitch black.
Work of Fiction.
