Such a beautiful night so quiet and peaceful I wish my life could be so quite . My name is Mishal every one calls me Sha i am 26 and in 26 years of my life i have many worst things happened and some good things to cover them . I am a introvert,i am a person who stay alone most of the time i don’t like noise. Since childhood I had two best friends actually I thought them as best friends not them cause no one can bear my true nature and i am adjustable but no may be because i did not have same wavelength as them i have a lots of friends in my schooling all were just friends, i had no one who lend their shoulder to cry or to laugh together
I completed my schooling got into a nice university made some so called friends again then I got job and here where the story starts
I was too crazy i was a bit obsessed with comic and bl so i was weird in others eyes then i met a girl named Rose we share a bit of same wavelength so we thought cause we like same food , same songs amd most of the things were in common so we became close she has her own friend circle and i don’t have many we were good and i felt free slowly I opened a bit by bit about myself to her . I was a free type i want her to be with everyone I thought just because i am her best friend i cant control her .
The more i am open to her the more far she felt , my mom and sister felt that Rose was not so good but she was the first person whom I felt good with so scolded them not to talk such shit but actually my heart felt that what they said was correct and it felt wrong wrong to my heart and couldn’t accept the fact we were normal not too close and too far from a tag bestie
Later i met a guy who was so interesting , we became friends and spent a lot of time
I felt safe with him near me , he was so considering and sweet they are the first two people with who i felt safe and free
Time went by i more i am open the more far it felt . I went to a trip with my friends so that i can be close to Rose , we completed our trip and thanks to it i became very very very ............ far from Rose
The thing what my mom said was true i am a refill but none ,so i was heart broken and i was a bit happy that i have one more person to share my feelings with i told him every thing and it was through chat i got reply from him “ mm” and no text from him for days, here we go again i am all alone
All the way back to first but actually it felt good to have none to I don’t have to be concerned about everything no need to check whether he or she likes it do they match , no need to try hard to impress any of them . Try so hard to hold them , i can be me no need to feel wrong no need feel hurt it was not so bad to be alone it’s quite and peaceful..
After a few days J moved on Rose sometimes try to come close to me and i just stay like always, she invites me to lunch or dinner which I would refuse , one day Rose came to me asked if every thing is alright I smiled and said yeah everything is fine why would she think that something is wrong , then she said i became distant and j changed she said we were best friends why are you avoiding me . I smile and said clearly i am not your best friend we were never .. her expression was plain she went back to her seat. After sometime I thought i was too harsh I shouldn’t have said such word and felt bad for a long time . I saw her going in to washroom so I thought I should apologise and followed her I saw her chatting with others and i want to know what she was talking about so i hid behind the wall . Yes they were talking about me she was making fun of me . I was furious I left I thought it a waste to pity her
I just left her to be and started to concentrate on my work slowly my hard work paid off I got promoted into higher positions but Rose was still the same. I started to have a good life , I earn my meals and my living has a high pay job and happy life alone, but in a nice way , my sister and i grew more closer a but we can’t be together forever she has her collage and i have my job
But life is always surprising the guy who left me with a message “mm" texted me which i never replied, being alone is not so bad and pathetic it is just a nature of a person , we meat different people but at last you will be left with yourself, your choice , others may tell you right and wrong but its your choice to take a step with out regret , only your choice . After you take a step you can not go back in that step you may lose someone and gain some but its you ALONE can make that choice and take that step
