I.. start to fall in love in such a young age..
Yeah..it's LOVE..
I'm sure..Definitely sure..
Because before I love him..
I got a crush on him 6 years ago..
I was 7 at that time..
Then I got to know that I like him 3 years ago..
Yet..
When can I call him mine?
It's been
6 years
6 Months
6 Weeks
6 Days
6 Hours
6 Minutes and 6 Seconds...
I'm still waiting..
And I said to my self.. I WILL BE WAITING..
I still remember how he look like at that time,
His gentle, sweet and alluring handsome smiles that can make me melt like an Ice cream..
..I'm sure he's aware that I love him..
I thought that when he got to know my feelings..
He will love me back..
Yet, now..
HE STARTED IGNORING ME.
And this is what I fear the most..
Cuz I know...
It only means one thing..
And that is..
HE CAN'T LOVE ME BACK..
Memories flash on my mind..
Our Childhood..
Where we are happily playing with the rain..
Times where I always cry and he's coaxing me..
Times where we play paper Airplanes..
Swimming in a pool..
Cutting my granpa's plants where we always scold by the elders..
But even were being scold..
Were still happy.. Smiling.. Eyes brightening..
And the time where I developed my feelings towards him..
I remember it all too well..
Yet.. That beautiful Childhood..
It's now just some parts of Memories..
TIMES THAT WE CAN'T GO BACK BUT ONLY RECALL IT..
Suddenly.. Something came up on my mind..
Maybe this feeling can also be just part of Memories..
Maybe..the time will come that this feeling will be also just only a Memory where it can only recall.
The time that this feeling is gone..
The feeling of being HURT..
The feeling that my Heart always races whenever he was there..
THIS FEELING..THAT I LOVE HIM..
Cuz I didn't like it in the first place..
Who said that I should fall for him?
No Øne...right?
I WANT TO BE FREE FROM THIS FEELING..
I WANT MY FREEDOM...
I DON'T WANT TO BE TRAPPED HERE FOREVER..
I WANT IT TO BE GONE..
And just be a part of Memory..
Memory that can't see on my mind..
BUT MEMORY THAT ALWAYS STAY IN MY HEART..
AND I'M HOPING FOR THAT TIME TO COME..
*This story is part of the Author's life..
And it's really what I feel..
I just want to share my feelings but HE'S my only friend.. Yeah..the one that I love..
And I guess I will be the most stupid person in the world if I share it to him, right??
So who else can I express this.. This feeling of being hurt?
If you also read my first short story called "ME."... My characteristics there was cold..
And yeah.. I just pretending to be cold.. Cuz I'm just trying so hard to forget this feelings.. I've love him for six years and Until now..
It's still him..
Please give me some advice how to forget this feelings😞..cuz I'm really fed up with this HURT😨.. I want it to end now! ):
That's why I'm giving some advice in my short story called "LOVE" cuz I want no one to be like me..
That is at the point that has no choice but to continue loving the first person that I've been loving..
I'm telling you.. It HURTS..
Yeah..you can tell that I'm still young because I'm just thirteen..but..
Is First Love is really this hard to Forget😭?..
Why do I have to love him this deeply??
Why it's Him out of so many boys around me? Why do it have to be him..
Please tell me some advice to forget this feelings..
Thank you for reading😔..
