Hi everyone this story is about my life I am a 14year old girl. I am the eldest child of my parents when I was a little girl I mom use to love me alot my dad also love me alot everything was going good and to bouble our happiness I got a younger brother I was 4 years older then me saying the truth I never took care of my brother because I was only 4 years old and I didn't understand anything I guess because of that I didn't understand the change of behavior of my parents towards me
When I became 10years old i started to notice their behavior because I started to understand things around me. But I had learn in moral science that parents scold us because they love us so we should not be angry with their words. So I thought it was because they wanted me to be a batter person so I ignored anger and always loved them
But things started to change. I started to realize that something was wrong I observed the nauter of my parents towards me and my brother and it was totally unfair but at that time also I thought that I am the oldest and I have grown so maybe they want to give love to my brother
And then I realized more and more of there behavior towards me my parents use to look at me with a eyes full of hatred and my grandparents only give attention to my brother because he was a boy I was alone in my own house whenever I tried to talk to them they use to ignore me whenever I use to help them they would yell at me that I don't do any work properly
I was felt really bad about it and top of that my brother also did not respected me. I thought if I spend some more time with them then they would show their a bit towards me. But I was wrong I always got scolding and a look of hatred from my parents which was really scary.
Because they were not happy to see me around them so I started to stay away from them. I really love singing when ever I go to the tree I always sit beside it would feel if it could know my feelings and understand me whenever I sing the tree would give me a pleasant breeze that would make me forget my sadness and my best friend my pet blackey would always accompany me. Because they help me in saying good bye to my loneliness I had loved plants and animals
My parents never let me out of the house many people don't know about my existence in the community and I don't have friends but the plant and animals were my friends when ever I sing the birds would come and listen to my song. But the worse thing was my parents hated whenever I sing they were scared that I would follow my dreams and not do what they want me to do
When my mom said to my brother and me that we could become any thing I want my brother said he wanted to be a scientist and my mom said he can be but when I ask I wanted to be a singer she looked at me with the same eyes full of hatred and said what is the use of becoming a sing you will be either doctor or police at that time I realize the difference between me and my brother
When I turned 11 my mom gave birth to a girl and when she came back from the hospital I was excited to see her but the first thing my mom did was scolded me by saying don't disturb me I was really sad and I knew there was a huge gape between my family and me I am a crybaby and a little childish I was not like other girls in our neighborhood I didn't like makup talking alot or having crush on boys and I really hate boys
When I turn 12 I started to give up on all my dreams and give up but when I watch an anime name 'Aikatsu star' I got some motivation. Even if it was just an anime I would get motivated by seeing how they worked hard to achieve their dreams and I started to known giving up on my dream was something like giving up on my life after
somethimes I also started to have an interest in dancing by see the Kpop idol name 'La Lisa Manoban' when I knew about her struggles so that she could achieve her dreams I started to look forward to my dreams
But that was not the end of my dream I also dicided to became a Politician because I had always loved my state Manipur (India). When I told my parents that I would become a singer and then I will become a politician they started to scold me and complain about me I felt very bad and there was not a single day when they didn't scold me they would get angry at me even if I didn't any bad things they would find reason to scold me so that they could feel relived from their anger
They said I have to become what they wanted me to become I got angry I didn't knew what to do. Then I thought when I was crying beside the bed every night because they scould me without any reson. Even though I was the one who always stop them from fighting and when every mom got angry because of my dad and sleep on the floor I was the one who woulg bring blanket for her and see whether she was sleeping or not. Even though I loved them so much but what they give was scolding and a look of hatred which I hate the most from them.
They could not understand me. Everyone you might be thinking that if parents don't scold us then who would but the fack is not just the scolding but scolding me with out any reason looking at me with the hatred look ignoring me and even not even saying a yes or no to me when I ask question I really huts beep inside. Even if I get use to it I will always get hurt I will always cry
Now I am 14 and I have become cold towards my parents and seldom talk to them if they had loved they should had notice my behavior but no they didn't and never ask me about my behavior
Now I am not that naive and stupid anymore I have dicided I will not quite my dreams and I will always aim to be the person I want even if they don't agree with me 'I WON'T QUIT' I always use to get my parents attention but now don't care if they love or not cause I don't care
Just imagine yourself as me and think how will you fell. Guys I just wanted to share my life to you because I have no one to talk with
So guys how would you fell if you live like me, will you chose your dreams or be something you don't want
Please comment 😊
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