red gardenia

I was living in a dull and colourless world. For it was painted by the person who once I thought painted my life colorful.

But I was never been this blessed, not until the day I first met you in early summer.

As I walk in the pathway, I saw you standing and appreciating the red gardenia. I am mesmerized by your beauty, as I saw your gentleness in your eyes. You are the first to let me experience these feelings.

I approached at you, wanting to know you. And I lost my confidence as I saw you smile back at me. I never knew that the conversation we once had, would lead to the friendship that would last.

You comforted me when you saw me breaking down. I thought I hide those feelings deep down, but you always saw through me. You always reminded me that you are always there beside me. You are the only one who gave me the warmest hug, where no one else can.

I kept having these thoughts, what if I confess, would you accept this feelings? I knew I don't deserve to be loved like this, yet, I still yearn for this feelings.

But I never knew that the day would come, as we grow closer together, you would open up your heart to someone else and told me these exciting feelings. I thought this would be alright, but "Can't it be me?"

For I knew from the start, that we both like men, but I yearn for you more.

For you are always my red Gardenia, a secret love that blooms in early summer, that is kept in my heart forever.