Everyone has their own dreams and interest and that's what gives them the strength to get out of bed. For me I only want to stay at home to eat, sleep, and read books(lots of books).
When I go outside I really hate what i see: Friends betraying each other for money; people with authority fighting for power; and people bullying the weak. These things which happens in movies or books are actually much worse in real life.
The world I believe is full of dark color If we really look at its bare appearance(atleast most of it). When I was young I always thought that the world was colorful, full of happiness. Even when I see bullying at school I thought that with billions of people around the world there must be people who are like me, like my kind father, like my gentle mother, or like my trustworthy friends. But as time passes and the more people I meet, the more I become afraid.Then I thought ,true within these billions of people there might be people who are like me or even kinder, but so what, they are so small that I might never meet them even if we did we might be strangers at that.
Because of that I decided that I will not interact much with the outside world. I acted like an observer more than being a participant. When beautiful girls at school like to play their game where they want to be looked up to and so they talk or flirt with guys(I'm handsome tho), I always try to avoid them and don't let my emotions get the best of me.
Because of how I perceive the world which I think is full of betrayals where people I know gets bullied or a girl being violated, I wanted to find comfort. I wanted to fool myself with fantasies so I read books which are mostly fictional with happy endings and positive perspective. Most of the books I read talks about the universe. I got goosebumps the very first time I read about parallel world or the possibility that there are other lifeforms on the universe. True even I think that these is an absurd idea, I don't really care because after all these years I finally found something I'm interested in. The idea that there are other lifeforms out there gives me different kinds of emotions: excitement, curiosity, but also worried because if by chance these very absurd idea becomes a reality, they might conquer each other just like what happened during the world war in the past. The reason why I like studying these isn't because I believe that these is possible but because I like the excitement of it being real.
