I am Silvia Jones. I am 26 years old girl. And today I will say you about love 🙂.
Many people think making GF and BF means they are in love . Yes, true its true but is that fact always true. No, its not sometimes people make GF and BF but little did they know that is it LOVE or is it just ATTRACTION. I will tell you about my story. 🙂
I was in college . A 19 year old girl. 1st year engineering. I had a little crazy classmate. His name was Ronald Austin. He had an huge crush on me. He always used to pursue me. But i didn't give any damn about him 😒. He always used to say me that "I love you Silvia " "I will give you every happiness " "Please accept me" but i always used to ignore him. He said these sentences to me many times. And as usual I ignore him. One day my friends told me to accept him and then misbehave with him so that he will break up with me and i will live happily afterwards. I thought about it for some day and agreed with them.
Next day as usual he said that sentence and this time i accepted him. He was happy like hell. And on his Bday i gave him a big surprise. And that was i went to his party with my crush Arnold Smith. He is the handsome hunk of our college. I had an crush on him or you can say i....i love him.
That day I gave Ronald his biggest birthday gift. And that was intimating with Arnold infront of him. And then breaking up with him. After that day Ronald didn't come to college and i don't know why but an unknown feeling was killing me from inside. After somedays I got to know that Ronald changed his college and went to abroad. I was happy like hell because i won't be getting distracted from now on and Arnold is now my BF. But i was feeling as if someone is stabbing my heart. I..i felt so uncomfortable i was also not able to breathe properly. I..i don't know what was happening to me. After a few days i was not getting happy being with relationship with Arnold as compared to Ronald. Because i don't know why but he was always try to make me laugh and happy when he was around me. He also cared about me. Arnold is doing these things but why am i not feeling happy WHY!!? On my 4th year i broke up with Arnold. There was not even a single day when i didn't think about Ronald. Every day every night every single second i thought about him. I was going crazy without him. Then when i was in 4th year we were interns in xy company.
And one day I saw Ronald there. I went to him and I saw him talking and laughing with a girl. I don't know why but i was feeling so angry after seeing them like this. Some days passed I apologized to Ronald and he forgive me. he told me that he was in relationship now. And when i used to see him with his girlfriend. I slowly slowly realized that I falled in love with Ronald. But now he can never be mine because the one he loves now is his true love.
Then i came back to my hometown and worked here and now i am sitting in front of you.
So, i want to tell you one thing and that is "you can't realize the value of a thing until and unless you feel like you are loosing it or you loosed it" Same goes to me. I didn't realize my love towards Ronald. Until and unless i loosed it. but now its too late. I sometimes wants to go back to my past and clear all my mess up but seems like that's not possible. I wish i knew the difference between LOVE and ATTRACTION . Today i would be living with Ronald happily. But No, that's not possible now🙃.
So, What is LOVE??
well its a feeling that we can't explain but can feel when we are in LOVE. 🙂
THANK YOU FOR READING
BY:- Sai Goutami
