Pushed.

Jessa Schmidt's POV

"You're for each other, but you are not meant to be."

That's what the girl said in the commercial I'm watching. Why are you so bitter girl? Don't you have anyone to love you or something? I was sitting in front of the television, watching at the commercials, waiting for our favorite show to come on. While waiting for the show, Josh called my name.

"Jessa? How do you like your popcorn? With cheese or without cheese?"

Who Josh might be you ask? Well, Josh is my boy best friend. Before anything else, so you guys can keep on track with me, let me first introduce myself.

My name is Jessa Schmidt, I am 16 years old. My parents left me when I was just 10 years old, I have no idea why they left me, but believe me, I tried looking for my mom and dad, but it was hopeless, I tried everything I can, but I couldn't find them. It was cold back then, I remember it was snowing, I don't know if it happened near December or what, all I know is that snow was falling down from the sky.

The sun went down and I sat down on a bench in front of a candy shop, my stomach was growling as I look at the sweet snacks decorated at the shop window.

I walked closer towards the shop window, trying to sniff at the snacks, but I couldn't smell anything. I don't know why I did that, I don't know why I hoped to smell the scent of the snacks through the window. As I pressed my body even more towards the shop window, I saw a boy walk out of the shop, he was carrying a paper bag.

I looked at him and he looked at me while he has a lollipop in his mouth. He walked towards me and gave me half of the candy inside the bag. I took them and I thanked him. I then walked towards the bench and started eating the candies he gave me.

As I was eating them, he walked towards me and asked where are my parents, I started tearing up and told him that I've lost them, I told him that I tried to find them, but I couldn't find them anywhere.

The boy sat beside me and told me that he was also left by his parents not too long ago, they left him when he was 11 years old, he's now 12 years old. The boy told me his name as he ate some more candy, his name is Josh.

Josh told me that I can stay with him, and since I didn't have anywhere to go, I decided to go with him to his house. His house is big enough to fit 2 families in it, but Josh lives alone so he gets to have the house all by himself. I am impressed by him though, he managed to survive being alone despite just being 11 years old, now 12.

Ever since Josh let me stay in his house, it also became my house, and ever since then, I see Josh as my big brother and he sees me as his little sister.

Time passed and I am now 16 years old and Josh is 18, and we still live under the same roof. But we're not doing anything wrong!

"Jessa!" Josh yelled at me while he was preparing the popcorn. "How would you like your popcorn!? With cheese or without cheese!?"

"Do you even need to ask that Josh!? You already now me! With cheese!"

"You like cheese that much? Maybe the reason why your crush doesn't like you is because you are cheesy."

I stood up from my sit and started walking towards Josh.

"What are you doing here? Are you finally going to help me?" Josh asked as he placed the bowl on the table.

I smiled at him and threw a throw pillow at his face. After throwing the throw pillow, I left the kitchen and went back into the living room, waiting for our favorite show.

"Why'd you threw that!?"

"It's a throw pillow! That's what they were made for!"

Minutes passed and our favorite show came up.

"Josh! Hurry up will you! It's starting!" I yelled at Josh as I made myself comfortable sitting on the couch.

"Hold on! I'm coming! Why don't you help me!?"

"Don't be a baby, you got it! Now hurry up! I'm hungry!"

Josh rolled his eyes as he started walking towards me, carrying two bowls filled with popcorn. I wasn't looking at him, but I knew he rolled his eyes. How could I tell? I sensed it.

"Here's your popcorn you lazy woman." Josh said as he handed me the bowl of popcorn.

"Where?" I asked as I kept my focus on the tv. As I kept my attention fixed on the tv, I didn't notice it. I just noticed it when it was too late.

"Ow! What's your problem!?" I yelled at Josh. Josh threw the throw pillow I threw at him earlier and it hit my face.

"Nothing, just payback for what you did earlier. Here's your popcorn."

I rolled my eyes as I took the bowl filled with popcorn from Josh's hands and starting eating. Josh was saying something but I didn't listen to him because I was so fixed on the movie we were watching. I was crying throughout the movie, the movie was so good! I couldn't help but cry! But Josh on the other hand, he was just laughing! Not a single tear fell down from his eyes!

I pulled his hair and kept on tugging it. "Why are you laughing!? The movie was a sad one and all you did was laugh! Was there anything funny about the movie mister!?" I yelled at him as I kept on tugging his hair.

"How am I not supposed to laugh! Your crying is funny!"

"Well what am I supposed to do!? This is what I look like when I cry! So shut up!"

Night came in and Josh spent the night sleeping on the couch. Well it was his fault! And no, we don't share the same bed. I locked his room and I hid the key to his room so he had no choice but to sleep on the couch.

Days went by and I'll admit it, I got homesick. I asked Josh if I can visit my old house, he allowed me, but only if he goes with me.

I smiled and thanked him. I went to my room to freshen up and after that, Josh and I started walking towards my old house. Along the way, Josh kept on teasing me, saying things which makes me mad and irritated.

Be chill Jessa! Don't get mad, you can get him back later, just be chill!

Josh kept on saying things which made me even more irritated, I got so irritated that I couldn't contain it anymore. I pushed Josh without command. I pushed him by anger, by accident. And because of that simple push, everything changed.

I didn't notice the vehicle moving at top speed behind us, everything went into slow motion, I don't know what to do, time froze, the next thing I know, the person who gave me so much happiness can also give me the worst sadness.

I didn't even got the chance to tell him how I really felt about him, I didn't got the chance to tell him that I love him.

We rushed Josh to the hospital, but it was too late. They said that the impact was too much for Josh's body, Josh didn't survive the impact.

I quickly ran towards the room where they kept Josh's body and I started hugging it, my tears started flowing down my cheeks.

"I'm sorry Josh, this, this is all my fault, I'm sorry. Please come back, please. I won't get mad anymore when you tease me, just please, come back to me…. Please….. Please come back..."

Everything was my fault, if only I have kept my anger, if only I didn't let my anger get the best of me, then maybe Josh will still be alive.

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"Is that the story of your first love Mom?" Jessica asked me as she placed her cheeks on my lap. "You had a tragic first love Mom."

I let out a giggle on the thing which my daughter, Jessica, said.

"Come here sweetie, give Mom a hug." Jessica stood up and hugged my tightly.

As me and Jessica were talking, my husband, Chris, called us telling us that the food he prepared is ready and that we will eat.

"We're coming honey! Let's go sweetie? We don't want the food your Dad prepared get cold." I held Jessica's hand and we started going downstairs.

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A few years later after Josh died, I received a message coming from an unknown number, out of curiosity, I opened it and stated reading it. What can I say, I'm a curious girl, but not too curious. I began reading the message and I couldn't believe it.

"Jessa, please forgive us, your mom and dad. We're sorry if we left you when you were still a child, if you can't and don't want to forgive us, it's okay, we understand, but there is something you need to know. Jessa, you are engaged. Please forgive us Jessa, it's just that we have no more money left, and I told my boss that you will marry his son. We're really sorry Jessa, please forgive us for what we have done."

I can't believe what I just read, I can't believe it and I don't want to believe it, this is all some sick dream right? I'm already engaged!? My parents who left me when I was just a kid, got me engaged to someone I haven't even met yet because they have no more money!?

I sat down thinking about what's happening, I can try to run away, but then I don't know where to go. I sat for hours thinking what I should do, but everything kept leading me back to getting married.

I had no other choice. So, I decided to just go with it. I got married to the son of my dad's boss and we had a kid, we named her Jessica.

At first, I didn't like it, but as time went on, I started having feelings for my husband. And that is the story of a girl who loved someone but married another man.

-The End-