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Video games, online, desserts and music The only love that I know. I'm not an orphan but gosh! and I only talk to the moon and sun and through poetry and I feel like not belong in our family. My family understand the love they have and love the way they are, and I love them because it's the blood connects me through them but it's not the love I know, they say they care and support me but in my mind I see nothing, yeah nothing, they weren't there, I asked for it. They do it for sympathy, I said thank you a hundred times, and I feel so useless, I was brought in a family where they like to romanticize suffering. abuse and neglect a docile lamb and took it's power. I'm thousand different in many ways, I'll be the first billionaire in our family "selfmade".

My family more care and love those relatives of us. I know I deserve no less but I won't beg for anyone to love me and make me feel worthy and I'll no longer be their little dear relative. I'm tired of being the nice girl. The Truth there's only one person exist that knows the almost ME and it's my younger sister.

When you change don't announce it just Bloom

I don't know why people pampered with love can easily say to a person that she deserves not to be loved and view it as a weakness as if we're gonna die and need it yes maybe. No! yeah we need that love to be honest "a Real love" that we never feel but it's not our lose too because we actually living our lives without the love and support with people we grew up of.

I lie too much about too many things. Im genuinely Scared that i will forget the truth

I'm not a liar I'm sick saying I'm lying I'm sick!

When a child is punished for their honesty, they begin to lie. Love has turned on me / and now I am its liar.

I Feel like i have a lot of important things to say but i just dont know what they are yet well i get so confused and frustrated and forgot what im trying to say

Why do I feel like i always have to explain myself to everyone??? Why does it seem like everyone forgets me easily??? whilst i remember all too well. You can have a millions friends and not even one close friend. Why do I crave recognition from the people who do not and will never matter?

Sometimes I worry that i have NO real identity i think I've been lonlier longer than i care to admit. How can i even find real friends When i cant be even my own. I wish I didn't feel the need to fit in

I constantly feel a shell of a person I was never nurtured to be.

Who was I Before this???why cant i be her? I was more productive as a child

i get lost in pretending to be human. I want to go somewhere far far away a new place to be from

I wished i wrote it but i dont so i learned the words