Dear Haley ...
Today is ur birthday ... But u r not by my side anymore. If u were here today , u would have loved these cherry blossoms . Though they r beautiful n are admired by many. To me, they r nothing then a flower n it's beauty cannot be compared to u.
It's more then a year now that u have left this world ! Did u ever regret leaving me? Did u ever? I really do miss u! So does ur son. Can u hear?... I named him James coz u always seemed to like that name. He's two years old now n is starting to talk a little, he looks a lot like u . U know !
After u gave birth to him, I heard that u left. I'm sorry that I realized the truth a little too late. James was sent to me by ur husband , he said that he didn't want to look after a child who looked like u. I don't know what happened between u two , but I'm sorry that u had to suffer a lot...alone.
If I were given a second chance I wouldn't have let u two meet . I would had stopped u from going to him but I cannot change the fact . U know! N I Cannot stop love!
Before he appeared we loved each other dearly , but I started to question our relationship. N as he appeared I seemed to become like a shadow. U misunderstood me n left me for him .But I don't blame u coz I didn't clarify the misunderstandings. Instead I left u without saying a word . Do u blame me? ...
But what gone is gone n what done is done . For u ,... even though James is not our child I would raise him good. Maybe u can see him growing up from heaven .
Hope u have forgiven me ...Coz I have forgiven u for falling into love with another men n have given a birth !
We were still immature when we fell in love. Maybe that's the reason why our love was shaken when the storm came.
lastly , if had known u would have suffered soo much in his hands I wouldn't have let go of ur hands . I thought u were happy, I thought u both had fallen in love with each other . So, I gave u my blessings. Then what happened? what went wrong !!
Anyways I'll visit u again some other day! Do rest in peace ...N rest assured I'll raise him good !!!
