Do you know what it's like to not know your parents? not knowing how they look, to wake up each day and wonder what it would be like to have your parents kiss you good night, wake you up in the mornings, cook delicious food for you, take you to school or even have a fun day at the park?
it sure sounds fun dosen't it? but for me I've never experienced any of those things, from the moment I was born I was placed In an orphanage. the children and the sisters at the orphanage are the only family I've ever known
don't get me wrong it's really nice at the orphanage, everybody there is super kind to me. they always make sure I'm okay mostly because I'm the youngest one there, especially Kia, Kia and I grew up together he is my bestfriend he too was abandoned by his parents when he was a baby
to me he is more then just a friend, he's more like a big brother to me, always making sure I'm okay, tries to cheer me up when I'm crying or upset, sticking up for me whenever we go to town to get food and some of the children would call me names or make fun of me for not having a mama or a papa...it makes me happy to have a big brother like that
but even though they treat me good, I still have days when I miss my mama and papa, I wonder if they miss me too? are they thinking of me, like I think of them everyday...do they regret giving me away? please tell me why did my mama and papa didn't want me...it hurts so much that I want to cry but I won't I've wasted enough tears, besides today isn't a day to be thinking about the pass and feeling sad. I should be happy and smiling
today my beautiful baby girl was born, her name is Yuna she has the most beatutifulest smile I have ever seen, I know my parents weren't there for me growing up but I'm going to make sure I'm there for my daughter each step of the way because I don't want her to feel the same way I did growing up without a parent
I admit I was scared at first when I found out I was pregnant, the only thing going through my mind was will I also abandoned my daughter like my parents did me? will I be a good parent to her? but with the help of my husband Haru and my big brother Kai I was able to overcome that fear...and now I'm determining to be the best mom I can be for my daughter
