Is Right Time Enough ?

Kring! Kring! Kring!

My alarm has been ringing but I'm still laying in my bed. I don't feel like standing up in a middle of the night.

I open my cellphone to contact my boyfriend.

"Hey! Zup?! Are you now awake baby?" he said sweetly to me.

His husky voice always gives me goosebumps. One of the reason why I fell in love with him.

"Yeah, but I'm too lazy to study." I replied to him while yawning.

"hey, just do it. Its almost exam. Cheer up, you can do this.!" an encouragement from him again.

Anyway, I'll introduce myself. I am Chie Aikawa and I'm currently in a college taking degree in medicine.

Fujino Hurinoka is my long term boyfriend. We've been together for almost 5 years and it all started since high school. He is taking study of law.

"Baby, I'll better hung it up now so you can focus on your review." then he end up the call.

I immediately stood up and make a cup of coffee for myself so I wouldn't be sleepy during the review.

Tomorrow morning :

“I love you, Chie.” He mouthed and kissed my forehead.

Celebrating our 5th anniversary right now even though the real date is on monday is what heaven feels like. I mean, he can get mad at me for celebrating it earlier than the said date but he didn’t. He rather chose to understand that my study is my first priority between our relationship.

I am so lucky to have him. I know.

I smiled as I looked into his lips. “I love you, too.”

After having a little dance, he courted me to the table where the only two of us will be sharing it. Beside on it, the huge amount of flowers from bouquet are sitting on the next chair wherein next to mine. He command me to sit and he hurriedly sit in front of me.

The waiter served the meal in front of me and we began eating.

“Thank you, baby,” I just said after my first bite.

“Thank you for always understanding me,” I continued. He let out a small smile and reached my hand on the table. He squeezed it and caressed gently.

“It’s okay. I know I can’t win with your studies but I will always here for you to support you. Okay? Don’t worry, I will be always here for you, as in always.”

Hearing those words from him makes my heart more fluttered. I think I really found the one. The one who will always by my side. I found my man in a world full of boys.

There are times that we didn't even able to see each other because of being busy and hectic schedule for study but he still find time to go in my dorm. There are many times that even though he is with me, I didn't give him time to cuddle and to talk more.

Since I'm nearly for graduating, I have so much paperwork to do and projects to pass. That's another reason why we barely see each other and talk.

Tomorrow morning, I've decided to visit him into his condo since it almost weeks since we talk and have some sweet moments in each other. I immediately took a bus to get there.

I click the door bell and it took an hour before he opens the door. As I entered to his room, I saw it in a mess. All his books are on the floor and alcohol bottles are also in a floor looking at mess.

"what happened to your room, baby?" I curiously ask him.

"Oh, nothing. It just that I can't focus yesterday so I drunk a little." he explains without looking into my eyes directly.

"Oh, I see." I replied.

"Oh, why are you here? Aren't you busy today?"

"Not really so I have my time for you baby. Where do you want to go? Let's have a date" I excitingly said but he looks not interested.

"Okay, I'll take a bath first. Just wait me for a minute."

Then the smile curve into his face. I miss those smile of him that gives me courage and comfort. After a couple of hours, he's ready but it doesn't look like.

"hey, you should change clothes. We're going outside." I reminded him.

"Baby, why don't we cancel our date?"

"What?" I shook the moment I heard it.

"All I want today is to hug you and have a special moment with you. Cause I really miss you so much."

He hugged me tightly.

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah, I want to be alone with you."

"Aw, my baby is so sweet. I love you" then I kissed him in his lips.

Kring! Kring!

"Baby, wake up. Its already late."

"WHAT?! OMG! I can't be late!"

I run faster as I could without so much thinking to be in the school. My professor for the first subject is literally strict so I can't handle if I'll be going late at his class.

"Sir, sorry I'm late. May I still come in?" I ask breathless.

"It's the first time that you've been late in my subject, Ms. Aikawa. I hope there's no second time okay? I'll be good for today. Come in and prepare for your quiz."

I entered the room and sit in my specific chair.

"Get your paper now, we're on number 15."

I immediately get my paper and put a number 16. I've missed the numbers 1-15 and it makes me sad. In this medicine field, you better not missed any number cause it will cause trouble to you in your grades.

After the quiz, I fell my head into my arm chair. I didn't review last night cause I don't know that we will be having a surprise quiz today. I'm deadly sure that I'm going to fail.

I went home and took a snap just to lessen the stress that I'm feeling right now.

“Good morning my Doctor, you never wake me up again. I know you’re already in your class, sending hugs and kisses. Love you.”

Ugh, this man is so really patient with me. I’m so lucky for having him beside me because he understands me, my needs, privacy and my life’s choices and decisions. I never heard any complaints from him. I swear, for the past years, I have been focusing on my studies but we never argued about this. Do you see how lucky am I? I really can’t imagine losing this kind of guy.

Oh, it's already morning but I didn't even recognized that I fell asleep last night. I'll better hurry cause I will be late again!

“Prepare your blank notebook, we have a surprise quiz today.”

I almost jumped in my seat upon hearing the words from my prof.

“What?!” I exclaimed.

“You can’t be a doctor if you’re a deaf,” he calmly said and clicked his remote to the powerpoint.

“Quiz 1-300.”

Shocks.

"sir, I thought we will be having a quiz next week cause we just take yesterday."

"It’s a surprise quiz, what do you expect from the word surprise? You will be informed?” he sarcastically said.

“You all want to be a Doctor for pete’s sake and you are not prepared?! You should be prepared regardless of the situation. What if there's an accident while you're in a way? You will complain because you never expected it would happen?!” Just like what we are expecting, he easily gets mad at us for not using our common sense again.

“Common sense, common sense.” He chuckled and set the time. He distributed the papers and sat on his chair infront after."

I sigh because of frustration. If I know we will have a quiz today, I should have studied more. I mean, I study everyday. But, I didn’t study yesterday for a rest and because of tiredness.

"Ms. Aikawa, I'm sorry but you're the only one who needs to cope up with me. I really think you're going to failed on this subject."

"Why sir?"

I left the school with heavy chest. I cried whsn I return to my dorm and after just a minutes I return my focus to study again. There's no time to breakdown. I still have lots to study.

I closed my eyes. Inhale, exhale. I can memorize it, I can do this.

Text message!

Baby has one message for you!

As I read the notification from my phone.

Baby: Hey, where is my Doctor? I have something for you.

I immediately typed my reply and sent it to him.

“I’m busy. I’m sorry. I’ll make up next time.”

I turned off my phone and continued studying. Days passed and I am still so focused with my studies to the point that I forgot I have a boyfriend. He always visits me but when he visits, I am sleeping. I just have this note beside me when I wake up saying he passed by to bring me food. I appreciate it but sometimes I forgot to text him a message that I received it for the reason that I immediately studied and went to school.

Its been 5 months since we've become in this kind of situation we're we are both busy in our studies. Then one day,

"Chie, please give me one day. I really missed you." he begged with his teary eyes.

"Baby, We always have a surprise quiz so I need to be well prepared always."

He bursted crying.

“What can I do? I just miss you. A one day can’t lose your way...”

“No.” I immediately replied.

“Remember when we had a date? I rested for one day only but I lost my rank. I was embarrassed for forgetting my answers so you cannot just tell me that nothing will lose. I’m so sorry, if you can’t understand it..”

This is heavy to say but I think, we need space.

"What?!"

"Let's break up...."

Nooo!” He ran towards me and kneeled. He hugged my legs and cried so hard. Damn. It’s so heartbreaking to see a man crying for his girl.

“Please no. Forget what I said. I understand baby. I understand. I really do. I am really sorry. I will be just right here. Please, just don’t leave me.” He continues to cry.

We both crying but I should really stand up for this decision.

I don't want to see him suffering because of me.

He deserves time. He deserves to be valued. He deserves better. He deserves the best.

And.. I couldn’t give it to him right now because he’s not my main goal, my main priority.

"I'm sorry because I can't give you what you truly deserve. Maybe it is not the right time for us."

"I'll come back to you after graduation. Let's separate our ways for now. I'm looking forward to see you along the way."

"That's not true baby. You 100% deserve me. I can wait for you baby. No matter how long it takes, I will wait for you."

He kneeled down.

"Don't do it to yourself baby. Stand up now baby please." I wiped his tears

I can’t afford losing him, but I don’t wanna see him suffering just because I couldn’t give the ideal relationship he wanted.

"The next woman you'll be loving is definitely a lucky one. I hope she will gave you the best that you deserve."

"Please set yourself from me."

I run away towards inside on my dorm.

You have to do this Chie! Its for you both sake.

This is for him. I don’t wanna see him asking for time to the person who couldn’t give it willingly. He doesn’t deserve me at all.

I know someday, he will thank me for giving up on him. Because that day, he will appreciate the woman who was there for him at his worst.

I feel like my world turned upside down. I have nothing to say anymore but to cry.. and cry until I lost all my strengths.

"Doc patient 132 is already in her cm labor." Doctor Shakira informed me.

I nod my head and grab my coat.

It’s been 10 years.. it’s been 10 years and I still love the idea of waking up everyday knowing I have so many patients to be cured.

I went to Doctor Shakira to help her because the patient is having a hard time for her labor.

I gave a smile in every person who greets me. Unfortunately, I saw a familiar face running towards me.

I stopped.

My heart starts beating more than it does. I feel like my world stops for a while. I barely hear the noises of the people inside this hospital.

All I can hear in the moment is my heart that keeps beating so fast.

I clutched my chest when he’s slowly getting right into me. Damn! I couldn’t move.

“Oh...” his eyes widened as he stopped in front of me.

My throat becomes dry and I started to lack breath.

I don’t know... should I feel afraid? But I kinda feel happy seeing him right now.

He smiled. “H-hey,” oh god, how I missed his voice!

“Hey..” I replied with a smile on my face. I looked up to hold my tears. Gosh, I want to hug him so bad.

It’s been 10 years...

It’s been 10 years and I am still into him.

“How are you...” he glanced at my uniform and a big smile formed on his lips upon seeing the name tag on it.

“How are you, Doctora Aikawa?”

Doctora... he used to call me ‘my Doctora’.

I shrugged. Ugh! Of course, everything has changed

“I’m fine. You?” Before hearing his replied, a nurse tapped on my shoulder.

“Excuse me Doc, sorry for interruption but Doctora Shakira is already calling you, emergency.”

“Go, don’t mind me. I’m so proud of you. See you around,” he then walked away and ran.

After that, I remembered that we used to dream of having baby. I'll now find you baby. I'm so into you. I'll do what I promise to you before. I'm now ready for you.

I know we met for reason.

For the second time, we both stopped and just stared for each other.

"Anyway, what are you doing here?" I asked

"For my wife"

"Wife?" I repeatedly said.

"Yeah, she's having a labor in my baby"

I got shooked when I heard those from him.

“First baby?” I asked to cover up my trembling voice.

“No, second.”

My eyes started to heat up. I know my tears will flow any minute from now but I still choose not to move.

Why do I feel so betrayed? Why do I feel this way when in fact I chose to leave him 10 years ago?

“Hey, don’t cry..” he immediately wiped my tears but I refused it.

“I’m sorry... shame on me for expecting that you waited,” I faked my chuckle.

I saw how he was shocked by what he heard from me. Seems like he was not expecting that I will say it after leaving him.

“Chie... it’s been 10 years..” he uttered.

"I know. I thought you really wait for me but I was wrong. Promises really meant to be broken." i fake a smile.

"Chie, I begged you before to stay. I said before that I'll wait but you keep ignoring me. I'm just a human, Chie. I got tired following you and begging you to come back. All those moments that were together, I always understands you because I loved you. But everything has a limit. I never ask for your whole time all I need was your small time. When you are suffering in your academics, don't you think i am too? I'm also busy before but still manage to give you my time but you'll never sacrifice just a little for me."

"I'm sorry. I'm just frustrated before so I said those words without so much thinking. I didn't mean it." I started crying out loud.

"No. You mean it. But I'm so thankful because if you didn’t do that I wouldn't able to meet my wife now." he smile at me and wipe my tears.

"Don't cry, Chie. I know you will find someone in time." he hugged me.

"Are you the father of the baby?" Doctor Shakira entered the conversation.

"Yeah. I'll get going then, bye Chie" He smiled at me for the last time.

AUTHOR NOTES:

Remember that when we are making a decision, think 100 times and make sure that you won't regret it in the end. But still, if you're not meant to be with each other , then no matter how you both tried, it will become useless at the end.

This is my first story published here, I hope you'll support me guys. Love you 💗