Anywhere I go, anywhere I see... I see frustration, sadness, heaviness, anger, defeat and tiredness.
It's not being too long when I stopped thinking about these stuff. I am tired, I am tired of thinking. I am tired of worrying about every single step I take. I am tired of thinking how will be the next day!
I am tired without telling you my pain.
I am tired of the gossips people do. I am tired of people not thinking before speaking. I am tired of fake people.
I am tired with dealing with unruly people.
I am tired of sleeping with my worries and waking up with them. I am tired of having the same dream. I am tired of hearing people's death every other day. I am tired of wishing people happy birthday and I am tired of celebrating my own.
Don't think I am depressed I am just tired dealing with all the stuffs that I think I have lost myself somewhere but neverthless I am trying. I am trying of not being tired anymore. I am trying to change my perspective of people. I am trying to learn new things. I am trying to make my worries a little less. I am trying to deal with different people with a real happy smile. And I am trying to ignore my repetitive dreams. I am trying to leave gossips and not meddle with gossipers much. I am trying to breath in and breath out to calm myself and my worries. I am trying and trying and even if I am tired I believe one day I can come out of this tiredness and be energetic enough to enjoy that I have came across my dark time and am shining brightly!
So those who are tired believe in yourself even when you don't have anyone to support you even if don't find a way out. Believe that you have a way out. Catch the little hope you have and follow the path, change direction if you are stuck just keep moving and don't stop!
Thank you for reading!
