everytime she starves herself they just roll their eyes
They call her a drama queen
And once again shatter all the confidence she had gathered
Her thoughts are often stars she cannot fathom into constellations.
The people who are supposed to be an example in her life
Just damaged her beyond repair.
They think she starves herself to catch the attention of few,
but little did they know she breaks down when nobody is looking.
every time that she is alone,
She looks at herself on the mirror and thinks
'why do I look so ugly ??'
' why does she get to be beautiful but not me??'
she shuts herself down when others complement her,
In the fear that they might notice her
'not so beautiful features'.
All the people who are supposed to be supporting her
Only roll their eyes at her and say
" Get over with the drama'
she often asks herself 'What in the world are you??'
only to be answered by the demons she has been running from.
They bruise her again and again till the scar is permanent ,
And till the pain is unbearable.
Maybe one day there will be someone who says to her
"No matter what shape and size you are...you look beautiful darling"
But till that day she has to wait with patience and strength.
some days the weather will be grey but she has to bear it all, because somewhere ...
Maybe somewhere there is a rainbow who is waiting
JUST FOR HER.
Some times she wishes she could scream all her sufferings right in their faces,
but she does not do it....why??
IT WILL SHATTER THEIR HEARTS.
So what does she do when the pressure gets the best out of her ??
She bears it all and breaks completely on the inside.
Dedicated to my parents who don't know about my Eating disorders.
