In the morning.
Kensi yawns after waking up and goes to make her breakfast. Kensi's thoughts: It's a new day but I still have to think about my crush. It has been so long but I am still in love with him. I have been in love with him for about 10 years. Why must it be James? Back then I was blinded by him, he is very charming but I think he is some type of a playboy. Why!? Anyway, he has already got a girlfriend. She's blond but I think she's ok.
Her past with James...
Kensi's thoughts: wow, he is so good looking and cool. I have also heard that he is on a good school, where most intelligent people study but there are also intelligent people, who are studying in other schools. He is really charming. He goes very often with his friend. My bestfriend is in love with his friend but at first, we didn't know their names. My friend told me theire names after one day. Where did she get the information about them? Don't tell me, she went to them? Haha, no way. Then there is a place, where most young people can go after school. I go there but not that much these days but when my bestfriend told me that he is there, I wanted to go there again and was so exited. She goes there too but after a time, I was a bit disappointed that she didn't go there anymore. I don't really want to be alone.
About a year Left...
I'm still going there. He only goes sometimes there and I sometimes forgot about him. I thought, that isn't love. I am so young. How can that be love. One day, he asked me to go home together and of course I said yes. I was really nervous and happy at the same time. But it was some kinda awkward because... I almost only talked about cars. Lmao. And then my father drove with his car in here and then of course I have to go to my father... even if there were just some meters. My parents don't allow me to have a boyfriend during school and that is ok for me. I'm fine with that I think. And I just run away from James. I wanted to say sorry to him but he we didn't talked to each other anymore. I had to run to my father, otherwise I may got beaten or I just didn't want my father to see me with him. I saw James with so many girls. Almost every time I saw him, he was with a girl. But those girls were different. It was like, a new year, a new girl. I thought wow they are happy and I wasn't jealous at all.
Now...
When I was in school, I saw some girls, who were with him. One of those girls, I knew her before and liked her but after I remembered him, I was feeling kinda weird towards the girl, who was with him. I was so blinded by him. I actually didn't want to be in love with James but love is love and we can't really change it. It's a strong feeling that we can't easily decide, even if we have good reasons for it. Sometimes I thought about suicide but I didn't kill myself and thought about him. Many times I wanted to be in live with him but sometimes not. I almost got over him but he showed up. Why? You kidding me? Just let it be. I haven't seen James for years. I think I am going to find someone else. Let's see.
Some days Later...
I want to take a walk after work. Kensi is looking outside the window. Seeing plants outside as inside is making her feeling better. Engineering is making a lot of fun but it is sometimes really exhausting. Just in some hours and I can go take a walk in the fresh breezy air to inhale that goodness.
After work
Finally it is time to take a walk outside. Then she goes to say goodbye to her co-workers. Kensi goes outside and feels the breezy air as she wanted. It feels so good here. Trees and plants all along. I still have to think about James but I don't really want to. Wait... what if I get kidnapped for something. It isn't that safe to go alone outside. I think I should go where many people are going around but here it is so beautiful. Ok, then I will go where many citizens are. The place here is so pretty. I know that I almost everywhere think that. Some males are starring at me. But why? I know that I am beautiful but some are really starring at me like something happend. That I am beautiful is to thank to my parents and the nature. Thank you. I have to take care of me because there are also bad people. Who knows, they are up to. Sometimes I am weird but everyone is weird, I guess but I am sometimes really weird. I don't really want anyone to know that I'm such a weird person. When I was younger, I was so shy. I danced and learned HipHop, I also play the Piano but I don't read sheets to play it. Drawing is making for me fun, often times. Oh, I am walking and dreaming or so deep in my thoughts. That's quit dangerous. I shouldn't be too deep in my thoughts. Over there is something to sit on. It looks nice there. Seeing the river and trees on the sides. There will be a sunset soon. Should I wait and watch it or go home for my safety.
For a time she only watches the sun moving, the river's shining reflections from the sun and the tree's, where the wind blows lightly. That wind blows lightly between her hair. It feels so comfortable here. It would be great if a kind, good looking guy would join me here and be with me here right now. But I know that won't happen or maybe? No, this isn't like those lovestorys I have read. Now I feel kinda lonely but maybe sometimes being alone is good. Like now. I think James has forgotten about me. I mean, we haven't seen each other for a very long time and he has also got a girlfriend. Why should I run after him. That's his business and I accept that but if he fights for me even if I don't want him, that would be really cute. Anyway, I should go home now. When she turned around, there is a guy sitting on the next seat at the river. He looks at her but that isn't James. He looks young and is good looking, maybe my hope came true but I should go home now. He smiles at me. I smile back. People outside often communicate like this to greet or to say goodbye. Maybe he is always here at this time. I should be careful and not going here tomorrow, that would be obvious. Then the day after tomorrow. I wanted to go here again, even if he didn't appear. At this hour are so many handsome guys going around. Why are they doing this? Kensi goes quickly home and encounters plenty of them but she tries to ignore them, so that they don't follow her. Those guys are often talking louder and more if they are near her. She saw that often times. It's often really annoying. After some time, she looked behind her so that nobody is following her to her home. But there isn't anybody. In some minutes, she will be home but suddenly someone pushes her to the side and pins her to the wall. Kensi is shocked and tries to escape but then she watched around that guy whether is wearing any weapon. She can't find any weapon at him. That is the first time, she got this experience. I'm scared, what is this person up to? That looks like a male and he is really tall. What do you want? She asks him. He doesn't say anything gets more close to her instead. Kensi: Wait, please stop. Who are you? It's too dark to see his face. You will know soon, he says. This voice, do I know... he continues getting closer to her and kisses her. This guy, she thinks. That doesn't feel bad but who is it. I should try to escape. She struggles around but he holds her tight. Gosh. She tries to kick and punch him, then she runs away. Kensi breaths hardly. I can't run toward my home right now if he is right behind me. Oh, right, there is a police station near here. When she almost got there
