March 2023
She looks like a blue parrot
Would you come fly to me?
I want some good day, good day, good day
Good day, good day
Looks like a winter bear
You sleep so happily
I wish you a good night, good night, good night
Good night, good night
The overly familier tune booms in my ears as i sit on an empty bench in the quit park... After 4 years I feel like listening to this again . The song about her ... my only love . I miss her . Have always missed her . But today i miss her much more than usual .
Her bright hazzle eyes , her sunny smile , her melodious laugh .
Our meeting was a serendepity . A once in a life time oprtunity . A winter magic. No it was'nt love at first sight but it was pretty damn close.
She helped when i was chased by saesang fans in her city.
I remember how amusement unstantly overshadowed fear once she appeared.
I remember the feeling of her small hand firmly holding mine as she pulled me to a safe hiding place . " shh... don't make a sound ... They wont find us hear".
I remember how the word "us" she ittered bought so much comfort in me .
I remember the yearning and dissapoinment I felt when ahe said "I think they have left you can go now ".
Spontaneously i asked for her number . She was surprised but at the end she gave it. And the rest was history .
We were happy . Extremely happy . I felt like i'd found my angel . My soulmate.
However my hectic schedule & pressure caused us to drift apart.
Smiles became scowls, Laughter turned to shouts , Love transformed into resentment.
We communicated less & less . Untill one rainy soring day , when the whole world shut down .
She called it quit .
Imagine your face, say hello to me
Then all the bad days, they're nothing to me
with you ....
Winter bear
"I wonder how she is doing now"
Then just as magical as she entered my life the first time she reappeares in front of me again.
Standing across the park wearing a beige sweater , and a pair of loose jeans .She looks as stunning as the day we met.
I can't believe my eyes... Is this a dream ? Will she vanish if i blink?
I rub my eys and she is still there ... Not just a fragment of my imagination.
Feeling my gaze , she turned to me & our eyes lock as if the whole world ceases to exist and there is only 2 of us left. My long-dormant heart starts beating again.
I rise from my seat & try to pace myself, even though every muscle in my body wants to run to her.
"Hi..."
was all i managed to say .. Despite having thousands of thing i want to say to her .
"Hi..."
Eanch and every tone i her short & simple words string my heart
"Did'nt expect to see you here... How are you?"
She asks, a small smirk lifting her lips. A sign that she is feeling uncomfortable
Its funny how i know so much about her, How i'd touch every in of her skin, yet afyer we brokeup, we became strangers who do awkward small-talks like we have no history .
"I'm alright , I'm taking a break from work for a week. Today is my first day and i already have no idea on what to do"
The sentence "Because i dont have you " almost slipped out of my mouth . Luckily i stopped myself.
"Ah... I see"
She nods as she puts her long silky hair behing her ear.
" what are you upto these days ?"
I tried to keep the conversation going so that she'll stay.
"Well not much... I-"
Suddenly a lout cry reverberates through the air.
A child's cry.
She abruptly turns her head towards the sound source & rushes to the little boy who's bawling his eyes out on the ground.
She swiftly scoops him up and pats his back to comfort him.
The boy's crys disappeared , replaced by a rolling thunder blasting in my head.
Is that her child ?
A handsome man around my age runs towards them in panic & caresses the boy's head.
The 3 of them looked like model families i have seen on magazines.
To say that my heart breaks is an understatement , It's imploded into nothingness.
Neverthless i muster my courage and step towards them
"Is he okay?"
I put my acting skill on use and plastered a smile on my face , although from her gaze , I know that she knows that i'm not being sincere.
"He's fine.. Thank you .... are you Y/N's friend ? Hi my name is-"
The man extended his right arm towards me but she grabs it in a hurry .
" I'm sorry but we need to leave. Goodbye"
She hastily nods at me & drags her family away.
"Goodbye"
I mumbled as I watch their backs becoming smaller & smaller untill they disappear into the crowd.
Rain begins to drizzle fron the darkening sky .
She's gone again. On a rainy spring day.
And I have no right to stop her .
She's no longer mine . No longer my angel.
She's moved on while i'm stuck on that magical winter day we met .
~~~~Y/N POV~~~~
" Y/Nahh that guy earlier ... is he the one whose picture is in your phone?"My cousin asked
" Yes" I heavily nodded.
" Omg ... Thats Kim Taehyung? THE Kim Taehyung? Then why did you leave so abruptly ? Don't you still have feelings for him?"
"Well you son got hurt so...."I glanced at the boys scraped knees.
" Ya... Don't use my son as an excuse"
"Ugh .. whatever we are impossible ... He's from a different world "
"But you guys were togather once!"
"Yes . and it was a sweet dream that'll never repeat itself again in this lifetime..Never..."
I turn around one last time to bid goodbye to my winter bear .
~by Splash of Colors
