In the summer of my school days i watched you sketching my portraits , while looking at me with that tender look on your face. you smile everytime our eyes meet while hiding your face in your sketch book , i smile looking at your way while watching your tender smile , where does those days gone. you waited for me on the staircase of school while holding my hands telling me your feelings , me who smiled at you while nodding in acceptance , while looking at ulyour eyes which were full of love now sitting here alone in this cold night waiting for you to pick up my call what went wrong with us. i loved you above all , in those year of my youth when i had to choose between you and my family , i choosed you, now i am thinking if i hadn't abandoned my parents would it change something ,would i lived happily, would i didn't have to feel this loneliness . you make mistake i forgive you, you cheated on me i had forgive you, should i have not forgiven you , should i just left you, i don't know anymore. these 10 years i give all my to you, for you i had abandoned my parents abandoned my studied my dream just to support you, everytime you said i will make up to you i believe in you but now i think it was me who loved you in these years you just want some support to push you ahead in your life . when you take name of another persin in your sleep, when cheating become habit of your in this relationship should i have broken up with you then maybe i should not be so miserable . when did this love become soo painful that it become unbearable why did the love i had seen your eyes now look like a hallucination to me did not love or u get tired of this love what happen to us. tgere was time when your eyes didn't look away from me, those eyes always search for me but now i didn't have a chance to see those eyes anymore. seating here drinking alone while knowing you might be sleeping with someone why i can't cut u off, why this love had give me soo much pain. everyone says that love is the mist beautiful thing in this world , why thing beautiful thing only bring me pain why i had to fall soo deeply in this love where i drowning deeper and deeper . it become suffocating to even breath but now it time to end this paonful love these 10 years i loved you the most, but i hope in next life i don't want to love you.
