The day when my crush asked me wether I'll help for them or not. I was angry and couldn't help but talk back...."I won't! Don't ask me about that! Go and make it come true by yourself. Just leave me alone here!!"
He was shocked by my sudden answer. He said "I don't know which makes you angry but I'll leave you here. You're right! I should go and make it come true by myself" He left me alone in that street. That street I'll never forget and will never walk on it again nor make the same mistake again.
I vowed myself start from the day when I finally try to move on. After the days passed, he don't spend times with me anymore. He starts to be with Kevin. They two seems really happy and perfect while I was sitting alone and watching them.
I mean is, can't he feel that I love him. I was always in front of him but in his heart, he can only see her. Love her and Care for her.
After a week passed, some of my classmates start to bullies me while others start to gossip about me behind my back.
My so called bff Kevin didn't care even a bit. But my new friends ..... They stand by my side and always try to protect or try to please me. I still don't understand what's happening that day too. Days passed and turns into weeks. When the school tests prizes come, I was in the first place. I felt happy. But that doesn't last long. Kevin comes to me and said, "You paid the teachers to put you in first place, right?" That was the time when I realize that Kevin deserve any of my care or kindness no more.
I still cried for a few months and wasted whole 2020 year with Lonely, Depress, Pain, Heartbroken and Betrays....makes me remember my past and flashbacks always come back to me. Hunt me in my nightmares. Wakes up at night for no reasons. I passed through those days all alone. Now, as new year come....I decided to move on and live my life happily. Soon, I realize that:
It broke my heart but fixed my version.
Now, these days, as I started to write stories. And it makes me happy. I'm doing alright without him now.
And sorry that I only upload part 2 after such a long time. Cuz I was thinking, should I share with you all or not.....
Thx for reading, guys!
~ Jullium ~
