It was one of those days, days when I feel burdened by life. Everything was out of place. So I left my apartment in the City and headed home. In a place surrounded by verdant blanket of grass, cattle, goats, chiken and every other farm animal you can name.
I was a selfish person and I cheated on my husband. Its not that I didn't live him, it because I needed human warmth. He was a lawyer and his job took most of his time.
I was sad and alone. I took comfort in another man's arm. The affair lasted seven months. But my husband found out. He immediately filed for divorce. He took custody of our only child and I was left with nothing but regret.
So I came home, back to my parents house l, my childhood playground, my reprieve.
It was my mom who greeted me at the door. She knew what happened, well every body did.
Mama took me by the arm and led me inside my old room. She asked me to sit, so I did.
She sat down beside me and took my arm in her's. I never saw my mom as a strong woman. I always thought she was weak for leaving her glorious life in the city to live with my dad.
But that day, my mom proved how wrong I was about her. She asked me if I was okay and when I said no and began to cry. I kept telling her how much I regretted everything.
She patted my hand and said......
What is there to regret, if at that time it was the right thing to do then there is nothing to feel regretful for. Stop beating yourself up for it. People make mistakes but you know what, no one ever truly regrets what they have done, because there will always be a part of them that believes what they did was right.
To live in regret is rooting yourself in a place where you don't want to be. It is a dark place which will only consume a part of you. It doesn't matter if you regret it or not, what matters is you learned from it.
You cannot fix what's broken nor can you hold the weight of it on your shoulder, martyrs are long gone. If you walk the path of regret, then you will live in the shadow of your past." everyone is always thrown in a direction where they don't want to be, what matters is you keep walking that path with all your strength and focus on reaching the end.
You may not find yourself in a place where you want to be but you must never allow yourself to keep standing on the same ground.
The person who made that mistake is no longer the same person now, the only thing you must take from that is not the mistake, not the regret but the lesson. You cannot let the person before dictate the life of the person now"
She left me inside my room with my jaw dropped.
Was that my mom?
I think I under estimated her strength!
