Solve this matter [POEM]

I have thousands of things running inside my head

I wish I could go peacefully to my bed

I feel my heart piercing so deep

I wish to enjoy a slumber sleep

I'm stuck in a situation I can't get out

My head is full of anxiety and doubt

I wish I could find solace

instead of these eyes, tears laced

I want someone with whom, my feelings, I can share

Someone who would hold my heads which are bare

I want someone who would make me cheer up

I can't bear this pain, I think I'll tear up

I wish I was a part of this starlit sky

Sometimes I wish to die

I wish to slit my wrist with knife

I wanna see my afterlife

But I don't know if it would be any better

So, here itself, I have to solve all this matter..