This is based off of personal experience so I hope it's original but if you can relate tell your story and hello you are beautiful❤️ if you can not relate, hello you are beautiful ❤️
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Thirteen or was it twelve when the girl realizes what is happening around her.
The world is changing and so is her views on life.
She watches videos she sees photos she sees the world in different perspectives daily.
Waking up she lays there with emptiness. She lays there like time does not move. She lays there with no worries and tries to go to sleep again. However she is stopped by the call of her mother. The call of her siblings and the call of noise. She does not want to listen to the calls but she has to or else she will be in trouble. She rushes out her room so that she can hear no more yelling. She sits in her kitchen because the only real reason for her family to wake her up is for her to eat or her to get dressed because they will leave. Today she eats.
Today seems different than usual.
Today seems like every other day.
Today doesn't seem strange till she looks at her plate.
Today she gets less than usual.
She does not ask, she quietly eats, she eats and leaves.
She does not ask questions because inside she know why.
Inside she knows a lot.
Inside she says a lot.
Inside she cry's.
Inside she rages.
Inside...Inside there is a monster that she shall never unleash.
There are secrets in the world.
There are secrets made to protect and there are secrets that cause trouble.
Her secret causes herself trouble.
Her secret is told to No one.
Her secret does not indanger anyone.
So there must be a reason why she tells no one even though it causes no harm. She does not tell because she is afraid. She does not tell because if she does tell someone changes will happen, not happy changes. At least she thinks. She is troubled.
It happens multiple times when her family calls her fat. It happens multiple times when she thinks they are right.
She thinks they are always right.
She thinks it's true.
She cries every night.
She cries not only because of reading or because of a sad story. She cries because she sees herself.
She cries because she sees a mirror and becomes sad.
She cries because she loves her family but wants them to be gone as well because of what they say about her.
She cries in the store because her mom says she too fat and shouldn't buy such food.
She cries because it's daily.
She cries because she can not say anything back.
She cries and cries until...Until when? when they stop? when will that be? she does not know. All we and she know is that crying does not change things but it does help her think but it also makes her feel depressed. Crying is all she knows to let out because she is afraid. She is afraid but she wants change. Good change. She is afraid but she wants to be free. She wants to be happy about herself. She wants to be happy because of open minded people. She wants to be happy because she has no secrets.
When will she be happy?
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I honestly cried typing this...This is me currently. I don't know if it'll change but i do know that i am happy because I shared my feeling's. I am currently 14 and examples from this story happened recently so i cant say that there is change. But i do hope that change will happen in the future.
