๐ฟ๐๐๐ง ๐๐ฉ๐๐ง,
๐๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ for I was shy and not courageous enough to express my thoughts and feelings. For I now regret every moment and opportunity that I have missed.
๐๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ for I had to lie to you so you wouldnโt lose hope. For, I now truly believe it to be the worst I have ever done by giving you false hope. Would it have been better if I had uttered the bitter truth aloud? Would it have given you a chance to say goodbye to your dear ones? Did I rob it from you and everyone else?
๐๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ for refusing to acknowledge what I already knew but didnโt due to my fear, that my words when voiced out loud would turn to be a jinx. For I regret it now, a lot too late.
๐๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ for believing in miracles and prayers because what good did it ever do now? Maybe if I hadnโt, then would we have had a chance to honestly express our emotions?
๐๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ for I couldnโt do much for you. For everything that I am right now was something that you had helped with but I failed to do the same.
๐๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ for breaking your trust when you did nothing but believe in me with your life.
๐๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ for letting you down due to my lack of strength and courage. For Iโm ashamed to admit that I was helpless and couldnโt do much when everyone depended on me.
๐๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ for I wasnโt strong enough to fight more for you. Would you have survived if I had done more? If I had done things differently?
๐๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ for disappointing you and everyone else because of my shortcomings. For, I now wish to have the power to turn back time to change your fate. Maybe then, would you be here with us?
๐ญ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐, ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐ ๐ฐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐.
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