When I was 12 I had a serious crush I don't want to say his name. I'll say his short name Aj I always call him Aj.
Let me say from the starting
When I was 10 I had a serious skin problem I was diagnosed Psoriasis even I was a bold girl. I started to feel like the boldness I had is breaking into pieces. 1 year I was home schooled that one year I didn't take a step out of my house. My parents showed their sympathy, the relatives who came to see me showed a drama itself. I felt like I am seeing a movie every day. I know my parents felt sad for me they were busy looking for a cure. But they forgot what I need physically I was strong only the problem was the marks of psoriasis. But mentally I started to fall down I falled in a great depression. I had enough in my house I wanted someone who can make me feel that I have nothing.
I knew there was no one. So I started to console myself. Even it didn't make any big change I felt great. But when my mother sheds tears for Me. The boldness, the mental strength I have gained will be drained. So I told I want to go to school next year. I started to go to school. But going to school was more tough than I thought. Everyone looked at me
Everyone gossiped about me. Everyone was scared to sit near me. How funny isn't it. I felt like I..... I...
Hmm I do not know how to explain.
In my van children with my age started to look at me with a disgusting look, sympathetic look. But I was searching was... A person who can make me feel normal. I was not that old Mal. I... I became so backwards. So silent the girl who talked to me was sia ( I don't wish to say her name) sia was too kind even she was afraid to touch me she said the truth to me. Like....
Mal I am so sorry. I know you for years. But I can't hide my feelings. I am afraid. I am sorry. When I come near you my body is controlled by my afraid part. I am sorry.
So.... She was the one who told her feelings.
I was very happy. That there is someone who shared what are they feeling for me.
Next day I was feeling very bad because my relatives came to see me in the morning itself. So I was in the deep thought while getting into the van. I was going to fall Aj hold my hand and said watch your steps. I was shocked people are afraid of touching me but he hold my hand.
One day I was sitting in the window seat of my van every student were making noise I was only one who is not talking. Sia came and tried to talk to me but I.... I was not in a mood to talk. Suddenly Aj came near me and started to mess my hair I said to leave but he started to do it more I shouted.
I have told many times why can't you stop.
Suddenly the van falled down in silence. Everyone was looking at me. Like... It's been near 1 year I had stopped shouting, being angry.
Aj smiled at me. I didn't knew what was the meaning of that.
After that incident he started to pick up fights and comes to me. Yells at me.. I will yell at him too. It went like this.
One day when I got up in van I smiled at sia and said good morning. Sia was shocked for a moment. Then she ran towards me ahd hugged me and said you smiled my Mal smiled. Thanks to Aj he got you back.
I was also shocked. I started to become that old bold, enthusiastic Mal.
Thanks to Aj. we were enimes at first then we became friends then I felt like I am being attracted towards Aj. I knew that now I have feelings for him. I was very happy. 4 years. I went behind him. I said to sia that I had a crush. But I didn't say that who he was.
One day I thought of saying to sia that my crush was Aj.
When I went near her. She was also a bit nervous. She was also there to say something to me. I ask her to say first. She asked help from me. I was. Shocked I was really happy. It's because she helped me. In every single thing even a little single thing.
It's the first time she is asking help I was waiting for this moment I wanted to give her something... Now she is asking a help so I can grant it.
I hold her hand said that I will definitely help her. She seems to be nervous and shy. She said that she has a crush. I was very happy.
My friend as also got a crush. Wow....
Then she said who the person was.
'Aj'
( the next incident I will write tommorow)
