Hi guys it's author I haven't given a proper introduction so here it is
my name is Annie, but I don't like it, it's too girlish
a teenager but I don't look like one
age is 17 but look like 13
I'm not a shorty though
I have a family of 4, everyone is weird, but who am I to judge
I have a weak body composition, born weak can't blame anyone
I like it though but I'm still jealous of healthy people
only two things make me jealous at most
one is health, other is luck,
cause I have a rotten luck
mom says"Take care of yourself"
me: I try but nothing happens, I have to compromise my health if I want good marks
I mean you can't gain something without losing something, life is a balance between things
I'm a foodie, FOOD IS THE BEST
eat when you're sad, eat when you're happy, eat whenever you want
I wish I could keep on eating, without gaining weight
Father says: "you cry too easily when I haven't even said anything"
I was emotional back then, can't help it
me: you said a million things, you just don't remember, and I'm unable to forget
me: I cry because I can't hold any longer
Mother says: "don't be emotional"
and when I tried to be like that
she said: "you act like a lifeless corpse"
me: well you were the one who told me not to be emotional, opposite of emotional is emotionless
Brother says: You're a chromastone
it's an alien in BEN 10, it takes all the attacks and is still unaffected
likewise I am, unaffected by people and their words, I can speak far worse than others, I have a sharp tongue afterall
but I don't because I don't want to hurt their feelings, but now I'm like f*ck your feelings, I don't care if you're hurt, it's better to hurt others than to let them hurt you
my brother said: "you're a stone hearted person"
I had to turn my heart into stone it's was the only way to keep on going
Words hurt more, than the beatings
one should think twice before speaking
once said it can only be forgiven not forgotten
I have a few friends at school, cause I don't like socializing
it takes a lot of energy
even though they're few, they are the best
they listen to me when I want to ask something and they give nice suggestions
they don't feel bad even when I say harsh words, they smile and say something worse
I've never been in love till now
I had a crush back then, but I crushed it
it was like a sort of distraction
and I can't have distractions
One path, one objective
I don't know what is love? Or how it feels to be in love?
my mom always talks about true love
to which I think is pretty rare
I read some romance novels to know what it actually is
and then when I came to understand love, I'm like f*ck this love, I've lived fine without it, till now
and I can still go on, I'm not that desperate to be loved
I don't like the idea of dating, because it's basically like playing house
you change partners each time, just like changing clothes
One life, one love, with loyalty forever
I love three things me, myself and I
just kidding
I love food, money and myself
but there's a twist
I love money, saving money and not spending money
but I can spend it like water only if it's not mine
I always take my brother's money and leave him penniless
don't call me heartless, I have tolerated him since he was born
he uses my body as a pillow, as a bed with his drool sticking on my shoulder
that's why I charge him
he's 10 this year
he doesn't sit quietly and always eats my head the only person on this planet who can get on my nerves
My patience is unlimited
I love my mom, she gives me without asking anything
but when I ask something then she doesn't give me
she loves shopping, I hate shopping, I know I'm a girl
but I'm not interested in dressing up and all
I look nice in anything I wear
so my mom uses me like a living doll, putting hundreds of clothes on me
l say: are you finished?
my mom hands me another dress and says: "go and try this
I love my brother, only when he's quiet
he used to be cute as a toddler, but now he's annoying
the more he grows, the more he annoys me
but I also do the same, I blackmail him without an ounce of shame
Father, well what can I say, he's not the best father, he has never been a father to me but I'm happy that he at least loves my brother
so I don't like him nor hate him
hating him won't change anything so I feel nothing about him
Love and cherish the things you have
Don't go after materialistic things
it's said: "if you have a roof over your head,
a few good friends and a loving family,
you're richer than you think"
~Eli
