I'm from HUMSS strand.
While she's from ABM.
I'm a grade 12 student.
And she's a grade 11.
I'm the first in our batch.
Of course she is too.
I want to be a lawyer.
She wants to be an accountant.
We're childhood best friends.
We're neighbors.
But ain't a lover.
I had a crush on her since we were kids.
She knew it.
I did confess to her many times.
Even courted her.
But she kept on rejecting me.
Because for her, I'm more than special.
She only thinks of me as her older brother.
Nothing less 一 nothing more.
Not quite bad.
One day she told me that her long time crush courted her.
The boy is from the GAS strand.
She answered YES!
I was dumbfounded.
I didn't know how to react.
But the thing is that 一 I accepted it.
I supported them.
They're couple now.
Every single day they used to spend quality time to each other.
Going to school together, hanging out, having dates etc.
I'm left alone.
And it even upset me whenever I saw them holding their hands and doing hugs and kisses.
I'm envious 一 that should be me.
Time flies so fast.
Then suddenly.
Out of nowhere.
When she found out.
The boy cheated on her.
She was emotional.
She was broken.
She went crazily anxious.
While me 一
To the rescue.
I comforted her.
I gave her advices.
I show my love, care and sincerity.
I saved her.
IMMEDIATELY 一 she recovered.
She let go of her feelings.
She moved on.
Months had passed.
Another guy came to her life.
Now, the boy is from the TVL strand.
At first they were simply friends.
Going out together 一 with me.
Exchanging casual conversations.
Sharing laughter.
Expressing some motifs.
I witnessed them all.
Until they fell for each other.
It broke my heart again.
Seeing my first love with another guy.
This time 一 she's much happier.
But things didn't turned out the way it used to be.
For the second time around.
She was fooled.
Another break up.
Another heartbreak.
Another luxurious moment.
And then, here goes "me" again.
To the rescue.
One call away.
I comforted her.
I made her realized that she's loved and that she don't deserve the pain to be left.
This time I'm composed.
I even asked her, "Why not me?"
"WHY NOT ME?"
Then she said.
"This is what I don't like about us turns into lover that after all those sweet moments we had, after being together. You'll get tired 一 you'll leave me like they do. It's better to be this way, you're always with me whenever I needed you. You're special to me, you know that, that I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to lose you."
I replied.
"But you're hurting me now seeing you like this. We don't know the fate. If you only accept my love in the first place, you'll not be hurt like this. I'm not like them and you also know that. I love you so much."
I hugged her tightly.
And kissed her on the forehead.
For the last time I asked her.
"Now, can you accept my love?"
10 years later.......
"You may now kiss the bride."
She's married
She's happily in love.
To someone.
My cousin.
From STEM.
And now an Engineer.
While me 一
The Priest.
Who lead and made their marriage possible.
Priest not Lawyer.
Lawyer is her dream for me to become.
But sadly, I didn't have the reasons to pursue it.
Yes I'm from HUMSS.
While she's from ABM.
Her first relationship was from GAS.
Fell to a TVL.
And now married from STEM.
Again, I'm from HUMSS.
Off all the strands.
I was never been chosen.
