20th may 2020 | the day i finally loved him
리노는 귀엽다 😼
'꩖͜͡𖧷𖦝 thank me for this /j
well if i were to be honest with myself, he weren't the first boy whom i admired. in fact, he were the uhm secret lol ³rd ones 👀 i knew him since 2019 and listened to his sweet voice from time to time. i'm so lucky to hear that everyday and yes tbh, he were
undeniably good looking, but i didn't know that his personality was really good (we are kinda alike idk) however, the more time i spent with him, the more i realised that his smile and laughter outshone the rest. i couldn't keep my eyes off him the moment
i realised just how beautiful his smile was. but it still hurt, the way he held back his tears for the sake of his friends that means so much to him that did unexplainable things to my heart. seeing him put others before himself even in situations like that was what made me realise, that i wanted him
in my life. i wanted to get to know him better, which leads me to where i am today. well to him, i may be no one, just another ordinary person among the crowd of many. but to me, he mean more than the world, nothing in this universe could ever compare to the feeling of comfort he gave me.
having been stuck in such darkness for what felt like forever, happiness seemed like such a faraway dream, something unachievable and unreachable. but with him, every passing day feels like a blessing. he brought joy right into the palms of my hand,
making me smile on days i felt like all hope was lost. as cliche as this sounds :) he's truly my best friend, my sunshine✨ he brightened the darkest of days, putting a smile on my face when i feel like i would never be able to do so again.
he made my heart ache from just how much care it harbours for him. not once did i ever have to question if loving him was the right thing to do 💭 everything feels so natural, like i was born to be his friend before human *sigh*
feel so blessed to have found him. even though i'm much happier now that i know i can always depend on him to make me smile again. it hurts to know that while he's here holding my hand through every hardship i now face, i can't do the same for him.
whenever someone are being mean to him, hates thrown to his direction, i can't do anything except to pray that he is aware of his own worth. i know i don't need to worry because his friends are right there by his side, like they are his family
and i'm so glad he met someone like them. well they knew him longer than me so i trust them. life is full of unexpected moments, your appearance in mine being one. even though i would like to say that i promise to love you for as long as i'm breathing,
but we all know that nothing lasts forever, and promises were made to be broken. no one can be sure of what would happen in the future, but what i do know is that 50 years from now, even if you're no longer my ult as i do at this moment
when i look back and reminisce on my childhood, i would surely remember who you are. for i would not have made it this far in life had it not been for you so i promise to always do my best just like what you said <3
ily and stay safe out there ᳝'꩖͜͡ꦿꦼ💫
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