Hi my name is Coleen and yes i believe in love because people say love is everything, love is life, love is full of happiness and joyful and i think when i love someone i will be happy but when i love him i just feel hurt. I love this boy name Joshua and yes he is my cousin and yes i love him more than i love myself. I love him even that i know it is wrong, when i start loving him, in first im happy but in the middle im ok but in last im heart broken why?. Because i saw him hugging and kissing my "BESTFRIEND*. Kara is my bestfriend she is my friend since we are 7 years old and yes she know my feeling for Joshua. It hurts like i swear seeing my love kissing and loving Kara my one and only friend. But i can not do anything just let them be happy while me crying beside my bed. When i go to our family reunion i saw kara and Joshua holding eachother hand and josh introducing kara as his girlfriend. I hold my tears and after a minute i decided to go but someone call my name
Kara: Coleen wait *shout*
Coleen: Do you need something?
Kara: I know i hurt you but i love him also pls forgive me and for once stop being selfish
In my mind "Im selfish?"
Coleen: I never been, remember i gave you all you want, the dress that you want that my dad gave me as birthday present i gave that to you to make you happy but what about you?
Kara: Coleen i-
Coleen: You know what i wish you both a happy relationship and also from now on we are not friends anymore
I left there crying.
Love is happiness and joyful but also it has pain
that will broke you and your heart.
If there is really a man for me, waiting for me i just want to tell you. Don't hurt my feelings, i don't wanna go back to the pain i experience before, the pain that almost broke my future and myself and if you will come pls choose to stay i don't wanna cry again.
