One I Miss

I use to smile more and care more,

I use to think and act freely and positively,

But now I just think and let the things to be on their own.

I was a happy bubble back then,

I was a joyful person back then,

But now I just sit and wonder was I real or was it just the delusion of mine back then.

I am not what I use to be,

But I am not blaming you to make me the me.

I was more dependent and surrounded by your shadow back then,

That now it's all empty and lonely in present

But I stopped missing the shadow of you and started being independent now,

Still I don't know when and where will I get to meet the me of back then.

I agree I use to miss you,

I agree I cried for you,

But now I only cry to see me of back then,

Now I only hope to bring the me of back then,

The me of that time in more important and more happy than me of now.

So I just am missing the happy me which your shadow swallow before leaving me back then.