You said "I'm finding myself I'm lost.......and blah blah"
"Finding myself" is not how it works, you aren't a five-dollar bill in last winter's coat pocket.
You are not lost.
Your true self is right there, burried under those cultural conditioning, other people opinions, and inaccurate conclusion you drew as a kid that became your beliefs about who are you.
Your "Finding myself" is actually returning to yourself.
an unlearning, an excavation, a remembering who you were before the WORLD got its hands on you.