when I use to study in my 9th grade . I was joined in an tutors institute. my sir was so strict so that I can't even talk to any boy. but I too don't even dare to talk to any boy because what if my parents know about this and how they react . thinking of those I was scared .
Actually when I joined I saw a boy . by just seeing him only I understood that he is my first love. there is a feeling in my heart . I want to express that to him but I can't . he don't even look at me and he dont even talk to me . just by giving an eye contact is also hard for me.
2 years passed like that . end of my schooling .
farewell day . in my tution .
thinking that I am not going to see him now onwards. he filled in my heart completely . it was so hard for me to not to cry there . but I can't resist it . I hugged my bestie and started to cry . everybody thought that I am crying because I will be leaving from the institute but actually I am crying for the person whom I loved and who had stolen the place of my first love .
same night. everybody are leaving .
one of my best friend was walking with me. and asked that do I have any crush on the boy I Love . I said yes...
she said it was a nice thing . but I can't express my feeling which are filled in me.
years passed .......
right now I am 24 , I said one of my friend is there in my institute and the coincidence is she was one of my cousin's and her marriage was fixed .
she came and gave me invitation . the ghrooms name was familiar but I didn't recognised that he is the person I loved in my past . and who I was dreaming until now that he will come back for me .
on her marriage day.
ghroom came and sat , bride also came . at the same time I recognised that he is the person whom I loved . u know one thing what is the most horrible thing in this world . loving a person who doesn't love us but he is going to marry one of our best ones and the best one knows that we love him , but then also marrying him.
isn't this called as betrayal.
I felt that feeling . I cant resist it . I just left the place . my cousin seen that and after her wedding is completed . she came to my home to give a visit .
she came and sorry but I was busy in packing my thing . I was leaving abroad . I said I will forgive u . don't feel guilty . because even though if u feel guilt right now also there is no use . my happiness is gone with him . I waited for 10 years but right now in my life there is only soreness .leave it. have a happy life with my beloved one and with ur loved one .
can u tell me one thing , u too loved him right . When we use to study in that institute u too loved him right .say ...
she said yes.
I said ok leave it . I am happy that he is married to my best friend and also my sister . I am super happy . meanwhile a tear came down of my cheek . I said her to leave as fast she can and go out of my life with his husband and I wish her that she will keep my name for her daughter . I asked her . she said I will because I know u will miss him .I did a mistake in ur life . that's why only by giving him a daughter and naming her ur name only will give me relief from this stress.
every first won't be a success but when u truly find ur soulmate , ur love u will automatically accept him/her. for me it is him . but he is already another's man . I can't expect him.
but I will wait until a person come into my life and give a hope that he won't leave me and stay by my side .
this is a true story and this is my story .
-signing of yuna.
