I am a little one whose never been in love with someone. My characteristic is very unique to others, as my mother said. I'm so aware of myself especially when it comes to guys. I really hate guys but I have my reasons why I hated them badly. First, when I see them, I remember the time where my mom always cried because of my father. Second, I hate them because they're not stick to their promises, just like my father, who left us outside the railways. That was very cold that day. Now, I can't imagine how we survived that damned day. I can say that even though that was the most cruel one but we're lucky that day.
Currently, we live in a big house. Where there are guards and maids. I also send to a private school and get everything that I wanted. That they I realize that guys aren't the same. The world is too big. Good guys can be found but such in a tragic situation. But then again, I have to be vigilant. The guy who helped us is not even our relative, we didn't know him instead. So, I have to be ready all the time.
One day, I go to school early. This is my new school and my first day. I was too silence. No one speak towards me. That was so very awkward. I eat recess, lunch, and go home only within myself. I thought that this situation would be longer but one day, I saw a man that I think different from others. He is a cold one. But at first, I didn't notice him. I just keep going.
Suddenly he appears at the front of my way. I can't explain myself. My heart beats faster than faster. He want to say something but luckily I've save by the bell. Time to go to the next class, so I walk faster.
In the afternoon, 4:30 p. m. time to go home. I was in the highway waiting for a cab. But I have on my wrong way, so I was able to try to pass to another highway. While walking pass through, a big truck awaits me. I didn't notice it, but suddenly there was a person who pushed me out the road and get dumped. I can't even move because my body hurts so badly, and passed out.
When I'm awake, I was in the hospital. I still remember what happened so I rush to the place where the incident happen. People murmuring about a guy who was dumped by a truck. So I asked them and they tell me that it was in the hospital. I rushed again to back to the hospital and asked the nurse about the guy who's in accident. They tell me the room number but I was too late. He died because of a severe wound on his head and the doctor says that, too much blood runs out from his head so it is impossible for him to save. I cried too hard when I saw the face of the man that save me from that moment. It is the man in the school that I've met that day. I didn't know him but he save me. I was too careless, because of me there's a man who died.
Within that day, I plan to compensate him by killing myself. But my mom and the family of the man stopped me. They said, what is the purpose of saving my life if I killed myself? So I calm myself.
Even this day, years have passed by. The scene is still my memory. Is it still fresh for me. One thing that I promise to myself is to help other whether you know it or not. Good things is everywhere and it depends on how you manage it.
Alway remember: Every darkness there is light. Everything that happened have its reason.
