She

I've always watched her.. I don't think she ever noticed that I like her. It was her words that willed me to live even though those words were meant for someone else. It was her smile that let me know everything's gonna be OK even though she never gave me one of those

She hates me. I don't know why. Perhaps I had made some mistake. Because whenever I get close to her, mustering all my courage to talk to her. She will scowl as if I'm the worst thing she have seen maybe I am.It makes me want to run away. She can be pretty scary when she wants to.

I never thought that she'll know my name considering no one really bothers to find it out.But she did. It made me fall for her even more. I know, it's nothing much but it's something I had never hoped for.

I know I don't deserve her love or anyone's love but even I should be allowed to dream right?

I never said more than a sentence to her but now I think I should have at least when I saw her yesterday . Because yesterday I saw her crying. For the first time in all these years I've known her.

I knew something was wrong and I was about to comfort her when she saw me. She had glared at me through her tears.She shouted at me to leave her alone as she crumpled to the ground.

And I did. I got scared as always and I left her all alone even though my heart told me not to. I know how she is. I know she rarely says anything outright. Yet I left her. I should have talked to her.

But I didn't and I regret it. Because now I never will. Her body was bloated from the water, the fish had picked away her eyes..Her beautiful face looked creepy.

Had I talked to her ,maybe it would have turned out differently... Maybe she would have been alive and perhaps I might have had a friend for the first time in my life..

Oh how I wish I could turn back time