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On a chilly fall day with the wind blowing and my hair is against my face. I turned my head back to him and said, “I’ve loved you too but I guess your words just came a little too late.”
A few months ago🗓: **FLASHBACK BEGINS**
I first saw him at school and I instantly fell for him. It was the first time I felt my heart racing for someone. It was also the first time I felt the butterflies in my stomach fluttering so fast. I decided that I want to go up to him and talk to him. I walked over to the desk where he was sitting at, pulled up a chair and started a conversation with him. I talked to him for so long that I didn’t even realize how much time was passing by. Then suddenly the first bell rang and we had to get ready for class. But even as the teacher was speaking I couldn’t help myself but look at him the entire time. After class was over we decided to exchange contacts and text each other. Everyday at night or during the morning we would always be constantly texting each other. But when we were in school we always hung out together no matter what. As each day passed I felt myself being immersed in my feelings for him. I always thought about him so much that I could never get my mind off of him. But I was so shy and closed up on my feelings and how I felt about him that I began to avoid him slowly. It was to also make sure that none of my friends or classmates found out about my feelings for him. Every time I avoided him it pained me so much to leave him. But because of my own fears I just couldn’t express how I truly felt about him. As a year went by we grew farther and farther apart. I wanted stop my own fears from eating me up, but I really wanted to deny my own feelings. I felt so trapped on what I should do and how I should handle my own feelings. I didn’t know what to do at all I was so immersed in my own fears. Because of that I made a foolish mistake to just completely ignore him. I stopped responding to his texts and I started to block him this went on for about a year. But during this time I found myself and I have never felt so free from the chains that were holding me down. I slowly got over him as time went on, and I realized that I did love him but I missed my chance because I was foolish enough to ignore him. But as soon as another school year came up he found a way to reconnect with me again. And this time I didn’t reject him or push him away. But as soon as he confessed that he did like me too all those old feelings that were locked inside of me suddenly just came out and once again my heart started to flutter again. But blinded again by my own fears I repeated my mistake and ignored him again. This time I tried to destroy my feelings for him and his feelings for me by disconnecting with completely. Another cold year went by and I learned to move on. But after a year went by I finally learned my mistakes and what I had done was wrong and that I hurt myself and the boy in the process of this entire thing. And with the help of some friends I finally got a hold of his contact and called him and asked him to meet up in a park. All I said to him was “I want to see you, come and meet me in the park at 12PM” Then 10 minutes later I saw him standing in front of my face. He came and had a cold expression on his face. I told him to sit down beside me on the bench. So he came and sat down beside me and asked, “So what exactly do you have to say to me?” I turned to him and gave him an apology for hurting him by avoiding him and not admitting my own feelings. Each word that had left my mouth felt so painful because I felt so guilty for hurting him. After I was done with my apology he forgave me and told that he was fine and that he wasn’t mad at me. I felt so relieved and comforted upon hearing those words. As I got up to leave he grabbed my hand and said to me, “I still love you.” My eyes widened and I looked at him with fear and shock. I turned around from him, looked up at the trees. **FLASHBACK ENDS**
And on that chilly fall day with the wind blowing and my hair is against my face. I turned my head back to him and said, “I’ve loved you too but I guess your words just came a little too late.” I bitterly smiled at him with mixed feeling inside of my heart. But I turned away quickly and I slowly walked away from him. I quietly whispered to myself, “Goodbye my first love, goodbye... goodbye...”
The End
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