Spending the whole lifetime alone with no one by your side...is it hard ? Well it isn't that hard for me or maybe I thought so.
Being an orphan, I'm used to loneliness. No one by my side since childhood, no one to accompany me in my lone times, no one to lend a shoulder in my difficult times and just NO ONE in my life.
Now you might think, am I happy living like this? I would like to say, I'm not happy, instead I feel complete living like this.
Yeah you heard it right, I feel complete living alone all by myself, living in isolation. I'm leading a nice life and I have my favourite job that keeps me busy all day long. A beautiful apartment good enough for me, and that's all I don't wish for more. I worked hard to become what I am now and fortunately my luck supported me. And I had someone to whom I owe a lot...Mother Olivia, she's a nun who took care of me when I was a kid. But after all, I was still alone.
I never felt pain for not having anyone by my side nor did I crave for a homely love. I saw many people of my age getting married and having one or two kids and here I am still single and all alone, yet I don't feel any pain.
I thought that spending the rest of my life like this isn't a bad idea and it wouldn't be hard for me to stay alone forever until...until he showed up
He showed up out of no where.
It all started a month ago. It was a normal Sunday, like every other sunday. I don't really like to go out on weekends. I stay at home watching movies or series or completing my other pending work.
But that Sunday was something which changed my life forever, which changed me forever.
I completed my work and was about to go eat my lunch when I heard a knock on the door. I thought who it would be ?
I opened it and the thing that happened later, surprised me or more like shocked me...two hands of a middle-aged woman, came around my shoulders and she hugged me very tightly, she was crying insanely.
I didn't understand a single thing, I let the woman hug me for few more minutes, then she separated the hug and started giving kisses all over my face...now this was being too much so I stepped backwards. I glanced at her and the man beside her, a middle-aged man. Another man,who was young, stood behind them and passed a heart-warming smile towards me.
The woman noticed my questioning look and said, " I'm sorry dear...it's just that I couldn't stop myself when I finally saw you " Now I was getting confused. She continued, " Hi Richa, I am Trinity...I am your late mother's best friend. "
I didn't know how to react.
Then my eyes landed on Mother Olivia. I let them all in. They sat in the living room.
Mother Olivia sat beside me and said, " Richa, Trinity is right she's your late mother's best friend and came all the way here, to see you. "
I was getting irritated, why did she come now ?
Trinity continued, " I know you might feel irritated or angry because I came to see you now but I was helpless. When your parents died in that accident, I thought you also...you also " She couldn't hold her tears more and hugged me again. This time I returned the hug back and unknown tears started forming in my eyes.
After few minutes, we withdrew the hug. Trinity wiping her tears said, " This is my husband Jordan and that's my son Neil "
Neil looked at me and gave the same heart-warming smile as before.
Before I could say anything she continued, "Richa...now onwards call me mom and Jordan dad. Sorry for making you go through so much in the past but now you're not alone. We are all there for you "
I am speechless. Trinity gave me an album saying, " Go ahead open it " I looked at Mother Olivia, she nodded.
I opened it, I saw a picture of a beautiful family of three. The couple were holding a child. The woman in the picture looked more like how I am now or to be precise I looked more like her.
My mind already guessed it but I looked at Trinity to confirm. Trinity nodded. My eyes started shedding tears...this was the first time I saw my mom...my dad...my parents
I turned more pages of the album and saw my parents standing next to another couple holding a child...it was none other than Trinity and Jordan holding a child...Neil.
I looked back at them, " Thankyou...thankyou aunt Trinity for showing me my parents, thankyou so much " I was unable to keep hold of my tears now, and they were flowing continuously.
Trinity hugged me and said, "Call me mom dear...mom. Your parents, Jordan and I were all best friends. We all had planned for Neil and your marriage when u were still children but then...but then that accident "
Taking a deep breath, Trinity continued " Anyway I'm happy, very happy to have you back my child "
I looked at Trinity and said, " Mom... " the first time in my whole life. Tears ran down my cheeks. I didn't know they were happy tears or sad tears, sad because my real parents passed away, happy because I got new parents.
Soon I became Mrs.Richa from Ms.Richa
All this was like a dream for me. Since the day we met, until now, Neil said nothing except few simple words like, " Good morning, Good night, yeah, have a good rest, if you need something just tell me, etc. "
But even if Neil doesn't say much, he gives me a heart-warming ear to ear smile that makes my heart skip a beat.
His smile is something that makes me forget all my pains, that gives me hope and courage...all my life I never felt that someone's smile could be this useful, and he's not someone to me now...he's my husband.
The thought that now I have a husband, I'm married and I'm no longer alone...gives me an unknown happiness.
He doesn't say anything, but I understand him and he understands me.
Even on the wedding day, when I came out wearing my bridal gown, he said nothing nor did he compliment me but his sparkling eyes and bright smile answered all my questions.
He didn't say anything but I heard him...
" Richa, you're looking very beautiful in the wedding gown "
When I used to go for work in the morning, Neil gives me a hug.
He didn't say anything but I heard him...
" Be safe when I'm not around "
Whenever I felt uncomfortable at family functions or gatherings...obviously for an isolated person like me who has been alone all her life, if suddenly gets attention would feel uncomfortable, so as to ease that feeling Neil squeezes my hand slightly, giving me a smile.
He didn't say anything but I heard him...
" I'm here Richa, don't worry "
Whenever I felt sad or pain in my heart while remembering my parents, Neil lends me his shoulder.
He didn't say anything but I heard him...
" I'm still here to keep you happy Richa"
During night, he always embraces me giving all his warmth to me.
He didn't say anything but I heard him...
" I'm always here for you Richa, I love you "
In the past I had no one who accompanied me, I had no one on whom I could lean and cry. So I made myself strong and emotionless.
I thought living alone all by myself will never hurt me or the people around me but now that I have Neil...everything changed. I no longer want to live alone...I want to live with him and my family. I want to stay with him forever.
Earlier I said it's not hard for me to live alone forever, but now it's indeed hard for me to live whole lifetime alone. Now I feel happy, now I actually feel complete...I feel complete with Neil beside me..with Neil beside Richa
He said nothing but his love said everything...
He didn't say anything but I heard everything...
He didn't say anything but explained a lot of things to me...
He didn't say anything but made me understand the love of family and togetherness...
He didn't say anything but showed me the beauty of life...
He didn't say anything but he made me fall in love with him...
He didn't say anything but I heard everything...