People say the world is beautiful there are many things to explore.
I wanna see how beautiful it is.So i tried to hold on myself from falling down
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Many said there are more to struggle about.. Are u gonna give up so soon?
I tried again not to give up..living wid the hope that soon everything gonna be fine.
I know i am hopeless but still i wish for things to end soon coz it's getting too hard for me.
No matter how much i try to hold on...i am being pushed in the corner from every side.
Will i fall off from the cliff? I don't know anything.
Yeah i got many people to care abt me & the people who wishes for my well being.
i don't wanna let them down by giving up..but what can i do when i am already tired.
Many advised me..many helping me..many are wid me..but wht can i do..when me myself not wid me?
I gave up on my dreams & wishes coz now i don't want anything.
I went to find peace...but how can i? When my heart is not at ease..
Still struggling & suffering even if i am exhausted.
Always living in a fear...no freedom..no room for my own feelings.
Why i am even doing this? Why shouldn't i kill myself?
Do u think i never tried? Lol i did..but i guess..god don't want a useless person like my parents don't want me.
So i am waiting for my death..this is what i am struggling for.
I am living to wait for my death.
