today I met you again, after one year, I can't tell how you were looking or where you were going or how you were, because you just walked passing me, and angry me, just took a quick glance of you.
but I can tell you were wearing a black t-shirt on a black jeans. and your medium size hair were falling backwards, but one lock was disturbing you, by falling right next to your left eye. what is a little bigger than your right eye.
I still remember the last day I saw you, silly me, how could I forget that only day when I got that much angry that I regret later. I still remember the dark alley by my house where I drowned in my tears in just few seconds. I still remember your back in front of me, walking while looking down at phone, totally forgetting about others. not stopping no matter how much I call you in my heart. (that was stupid)
I still remember those lies I told my friends to skip your topic in our conversations, 'cause it'll do nothing but will hurt me more. anyway I'm writing this to you. so I won't bother you with the sadness, tears of mine.
but I'll surely give you the credit to make that strong, that no matter how much I miss you I never called you, not even sent you a text, never did I look through the late night conversations we used to have online. remember once I told you that one night I got caught by my father, because then we used to have only one smart phone in our family.
I should have knew that I didn't mean anything to you on that day, on my birthday when you just took my birthday treat but didn't even wished me a small 'happy birthday'. but I was too silly to take that hint of yours. you've had gave me many hints that I didn't mean anything.. but still was sticking with you, bothering you.....
but now I'm much mature so I won't bother you anymore, I won't ever look at the ways you used to walk, i won't ever heard the songs, we used to sent each other. I won't ever relive the memories where we were together, happy -laughing.
no mean seriously, now I just have only one memory of you, that day when you walked passing me,a acting like a stranger, that glance of you still hurts but whenever I'll feel like missing you or calling you, I'll just remember that.
huhmh... in short I just wanna thank you for that last memory of ours which always makes me stronger everytime I remember, which helped to moved on from you. or else I don't know how many years would I have been wasted on you thinking maybe I should've called you once when you moved away from me, maybe we could've been still at least friends. but anyways, thank you a lot.
and you know what's funnier, I love this state when we are nothing, 'cause they say, nothing lasts forever, maybe we are not destined to be everything forever, but I promise you I'll always maintain this 'nothing' state, even if the destiny offers you again...
but... let me tell you the funniest thing ever, you were the one who told me, made me realise I was enough, I was perfect with all my imperfections, I was the best even if was a loser.
and now you are also the one who made me realise I was nothing but an average girl, when you just walked passing me holding a girl's hand tightly, treating me like a stranger, even after having a close relationship for around a year, when I was sitting on the bench alone.
hoping we never cross
paths again in future
your "friend"
