There's so much pain in the question... "Are You Okay?"
That for a Moment someone noticed the changes is your face
That for a moment someone saw your mask fade away
That for a moment You Realized that you were Never okay....
I had a boyfriend... We are almost 5 years together now....
Our 6 years anniversary is coming.... But our misunderstanding is just starting...
I don't know why is he is so cold to me... he is different now....
Is our misunderstanding the one will break our good relationship?....
He is no longer spending more time with me since our graduation... I still remember what he promised to me....
He said
"I promise to you, You will be the only person I want to see in a white gown and be with me in the altar..."
Is his promise still standing?...
I was with my Best Friend we are going to his office to send him a lunch...
I spotted him having a lunch with a girl... "Who is that woman?" My Best Friend ask to me... I didn't answer.... Who is she?... I don't know either.... I walk to the table where is he sitting with the girl....
"Ohh, Honey, Why are you here?" The girl suddenly close her laptop.... "I just going to give you your lunch..."
... But I didn't expect that you already having a lunch....
"Ahh... Sorry I'm just so busy... I think you should go home now... Do you have someone with you" He ask to me.... I just nod... I turn to leave... I see him Go back to his sit and talk to the girl again....
"Are you sure... That your boyfriend is not cheating to you?..." ... My friend ask to me.... "Of Course Not" ... I answer it without hesitation... I don't know but I can't doubt him... am I turning blind because I really love him that much?....
That's not the only time I catch him with other women...
I barely see him anymore...
Sometimes I'm asking myself...
"Can I still to it, To be blind?
"I Can Because I Love Him"
But is my Love is strong enough to still hold him?
I look like a desperate woman who want to get attention to him....
Am I still Okay?....
Sometimes he is going home late at night... I want to ask him "Where Have you been?" ... But I always decided to keep quiet and keep it by my self.... It's Hurt... I'm Hurt.... But it's Fine... I still believing that my efforts is still worth it ..... I am thinking... Am I only the one who is still pushing so that our relationship will keep work... But the question is
.... "Is it still working?" ....
The Day pass and pass.... The more days passing,
The more time he's not spending with me.... I don't want to be selfish, But if I keep him to my self, is it still called love?.... Or just a simple word I'm Selfish?
I can't hold it back anymore.... I can't hold him anymore... But I Can't let him go... I can't let his hand go... I just can't... Because I can feel that if I let him go, I will Never see him anymore.....
The Day has Come.... The Very Important part of our relationship.... our 6 years anniversary..... Im happy, I can feel my heart that it's about to burst into happiness....
He ask me "Honey It's our Anniversary... Come with me this afternoon after my work. Okay? I will bring you to our favorite place"... I'm Happy because even if he is not spending more time with me, He still Remember our anniversary... And Of course it's because he is going to bring me to our favorite place.... Our Favorite place... That place is where we first met each other.... The first time we become a friends... The Playground... Where he stand up for me when the bullies is bullying me... The First time when someone stand up for me.... He promised to me that "He will stay by my side since then"
After his work he picked me up in front of our house,
He Bring me in the Restaurant that is not far away to our Favorite place..... We talk and talk about anything... I don't want to leave this place.... Im afraid that of we step out of this place he be back to his busy self.... Until we already need to leave.... After we step out of the restaurant his phone ring.... He has a call... I begged to my self please don't answer your call I don't want to end this time anymore..... He picked it up...
and he said "Honey I'll be back here, Okay? Just 30 minutes I promise... Bye"
He kissed me in my forehead and he takes his leave... He Said "Bye" But I feel suddenly like I'm about to cry.... It's Hurt.... it's supposed to be our day... Not work... Not Anything.... Just our Anniversary....
I wait and wait to him....
After 30 minutes he call to me.... I don't want to answer... I don't want to hear what is he going to say...... I picked it up and and he said what I feared
"Honey I'm sorry I think you need to go to home alone now... Is it fine to you? My Boss ask me to go to his office right now... I'm very very sorry..." I said " Yes it's fine..."
I'm just going to our favorite place alone.... I try not to cry... The tears that form in my eyes .... It's fine.... I want to go in our favorite place alone ...... Without anyone.....
After that I was walking in the dark night.... Crying... Sobbing... and watching the stars shining in the dark sky....
After that I feel something sharp in my neck, And see my one and only man I love in my life running to me....
And everything goes black.....
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I can feel... I hear a beeping sounds... A crying person....
What happened?... Ahh .... I remember... A snatcher put a blade in my neck and my beloved Boyfriend saved me.... Where is he?...
I open my eyes... And see that I am in the hospital....
"Where is Stefano?" I ask ..... When I open my eyes I see Cindy crying and when she realized that I'm awake she run and Hugged me tightly... Cindy... Cindy is Stefano's Sister.... My boyfriend.... "Where is Stefano?..." I ask again.... No one answer me....
Then, Stefano's Mother come in Crying and said "Scarlet, My child is gone... Stefano is Gone.... Your Boyfriend is gone"
I said to them "I'm at the hospital, But he chooses to stay in his work...." ...
"No, Scarlet.... Stefano is dead..." Cindy said
No it can't be.... there's no way this is happening....
"NO!!! YOU ARE ALL LYING..." I shout in Anger.....
and then.... I feel something slap my face....
"Wake Up... He is dead... He died because he save you.... he was stabbed in the chest with a knife.... Scarlet.... Your boyfriend he is dead.... He died for your sake ..."
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"It's not going to happen if he stay with me... if he choose me over his work..."
Cindy answer
"NO!!! He didn't choose his work... that time we are all in the playground where the two of you first see each other.... That time he was supposed to propose to you... That time he didn't choose his work.... The woman who is been with him is not his woman... it's the one who is planning for your wedding... He want to surprise you... He didn't spend more time with you because he is using his time for your future.... But when you didn't come to the playground ... He start to worry and take a stroll until he see you being attack... So you see... He didn't choose his work... He choose you.... He choose to died for your sake.... that is the measurement of how much he loves you ... Scarlet, He died Because he protect you...."
I can't keep the tears that forming in my eyes.... They fall and fall... He didn't choose his work... He Always choose me ..... He is not cold to me.... He just keep secret his proposal ... He love me ..... Than his own life .... He kept his promise to me... He stay by my side ... This is like when he stand up for me when I was being bullied....
But there is only one promise I can swear that I will do...
I promise that I will be your woman in a white gown
I Cry and cry when I see his body lying in the bed ..... he look like sleeping... Sleeping but will never wake up again....
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Short Message:
•Love Someone When he is still with you, Make him/her feel that you love them.... Because once they were gone, You can't go back in the past and change what might happen in the future....
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