People think loving idol is easy. Crushing them is nothing. It's just attraction. You will forget about them soon.
But people like us are different bruh. Idol crush or loving then is like the experience of first love to us. It makes us feel like spring. We become so obsessed with them that we can't even fall in love with someone else cause we are too afraid we gonna betry them.
You don't know how it feels to see your idol with another girl. It's feels like you are seeing your boyfriend cheating on you red handed. It feels like I stab myself with a knife.
Of course they made us happy. When they cry we can't hold our tears. It feels like they are now a part of me and part of my emotions.
But few thinks we forget when we have a Idol Crush. They are also human. We are so much into them that we forget they also have a private life. They also want to lead a normal life. We don't give them a chance to feel normal. They do so much hard work for us but still we forget to give them some space. It's not possible for them to love every of his fan girl. He can probably fall in love with one or maybe someone who even isn't his fan. We should except that. But our emotions and jealousy can't take it normally. At that time we forget everything and one thing that goes in our mind he betryed me.
But no. He doesn't even know me. It's not his fault that he wanted have a normal life. We are just try hard to get him. Yeah as his fan we surely should support him respect his decision. But that doesn't mean we will be toxic in his love.
Not only others I also forget this stuff when I find some weird news about my idol. But now I try my best to act normal. Cause as long as he is happy that makes me happy too. I just want him to lead a happy life with no regrets. If I don't get him it's fine but I wish the one who get him, loved him more then me more then us and they lead a happy life.
