Ah yes... Altho I may look like I am fine and I may not show it..
but I am not fine at all.
My least smile couldn't fade away just for you.
We became friends since we were in diapers until grew up to be best friends..
Yes..I became attached to you.It was a feeling I couldn't have had before.I developed feelings for you,and I know you won't feel the same way.
We were in highschool at that time where I suddenly able to reach to you and stayed beside you as we get more close..
Everyday, Every year, Every month.. I was always there for you and gave you the comfort you needed. I lend you my shoulder to soaked your tears onto whenever you were sad.
While I was listening to all of your problems,I was here, smiling and listening. I hoped for the best that you would always be happy like you would always would be. I hoped that I was the one who made you happy.
Alas someone gave you that happiness I hoped for you...She came and you looked at her. At first you despised her, but I guess love changes..
But there is always an end with everything..
Again and again, you would only come to me when you became sad and in loss, but ofcourse I never mind at all. Because I knew you haven't seen it yet.
Because even though you already have someone in your heart, I'm still always by your side, Smiling.. Again and Again..
I guess this is always the job for ChildhoodBest friends.. having that pain and feelings that you couldn't express and hide it within you for the sake of that someone.
All I can do is smile to you, because whenever I smile,I thought you feel comfortable.So I decided to smile only for you until you are satisfied.
I kept close to you and always make fun together with jokes..
Being just Childhood friends with you.. it's the thing I can only do, because I don't have any other way to get you to realize who's always been there for you in your whole life. I don't have that much confidence and chance to be with you.
And one day... you just simply let go of that grasp I told you to hold on just for a bit. I feel like I was dying... especially whenever I see you with another girl..
But the best option for me was...
to stay by your side and.. keep smiling only just for you. Even if flowers were blooming infront of your very last moment. But I'm thankful that my smile was the very last thing you could ever see and mention before..
Until we meet again.
