Once you've been Hurt, you get scared to get attached again, because you're always thinking everyone you love will always end up hurting you....
I have a friend... She is my most precious best friend... She never forget about me....
Since we are a child we always watch each other back... I still Remember it when we first met...
it's happen when I am around 6 to 7 years old and she is 6 years old below...
I am being bullied by a child I can't fight back, but she has a good heart and fight for me...
Since that day I promise to myself that I will going to be strong and help her if she need me too....
We both promise that we will be best friend always and forever...
A friend that will stay in each other's side, A friend that will watch in each other's back ...
After we step in highschool,
I've been developing a feelings for her, I want to tell it to her...
But I'm afraid that if I tell her my feelings I'm going to lost her...
We've been eating in the canteen together, talk about everything, and exchanging a good and bad that happening to us in the whole day....
and I'm going to walk her in her class every time even if we are not in the same class and walk her to home everyday
It's our Routine since we are a child, and when we are in the secondary school ...
Am I only the one who is inlove with his childhood best friend?....
She texting me every morning and greet me a good night before we sleep at night...
Yeah, I know It's sounds Romantic... but we are just a friend, Nothing more...
But sometimes I'm thinking, In that over 10 years of our friendship...
Does she feel something, Something different, Different in a friend way...
At first we always do that but since she becomes a cheerleader she lost time for me....
It's fine because I understand her, I understand because she want it... And I don't think there's a reason for me to stop her....
She's been spending more time with her new friends than me.... Now, Where is our promise... The promise that will never leave each other's side...
While I am in the class I received a message from her...
She said.....
"Hii, Charles, I'm very very sorry if I'm not spending more time with you this past few days... Hmmm... I want to make it up to you... How about I buy you a lunch and watch me with my friends in the afternoon and after that we can walk together after our class? And I want you to meet someone dearest to me too ~XoXo Your Bestie Xia"
Of Course I want it so I reply back... And I think that it's a good opportunity to tell her my real feelings..... So I said
"Of Course... Sooooo nowww Apology accepted...."
I reply as if we aren't see each others for over a month or a year.... But I'm curious who is this new dearest someone to her....
She ask me to walk with her in the afternoon after our class... We talk about a thing... Until our conversation land in the question....
"So?... Who is the lucky girl that you are having a lunch with?"
So I answer
"Why? Are you jealous?"
She don't answer instead roll her eyes... Our conversation end up in my question....
and We fall in a sudden silence...
Our silence stay until we both reach our home...
Just what she promised, She eat lunch with me... And after that I wait for her until their practice end....
when I'm about to walk to her I see a man walking toward her and kiss her in her forehead....
She glance at me and sign to me to come over her....
Every step I'm making toward them....
the more questions I want to ask her....
"Charles, I want you to meet Liam," She said to me...
"Your Boyfriend?" I ask it without even thinking...
And she answer the most painful word that make me silent for over a minute....
"Yes, He my boyfriend"....
She see my emotion change.... Now, My one question answer....
I know now why she don't spend more time with me... I regret that I didn't tell her my feelings sooner....
so I smile and said....
"Better take care my best friend... Or else I'm going to steal her back" I turn to leave.....
She is my first love... But I didn't think that it will end up like this .....
I know that it's rude of me to just turn and leave...
But I'm hurt and it's one of the reasons that I can't bear to feel again....
Does she care about me?.... Yes of course... But caring for someone is different from loving someone
I'm just a friend.... A friend that will be her guide...
I promise to her that I'm going to protect her I still want to watch your back...
But stay by her side, I think its the promise that I can no longer make....
At least I still have her
Everything will change in a different way... A different way...
Finding someone who thinks you're interesting enough to talk to you every day,
whether they're a friend or a lover, is one of the best feelings ever...
And I found her ...
My only dearest best friend....
I love her, and I know that she loves me to but in a Friend way ....
We all know that everything will change whether it's a good or a bad thing...
And it's up to us on how can we manage that thing.....
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~Short Message~
•"Not doesn't mean you are always with her, she is going to choose you, Remember Tinkerbell is always with Peter pan, But Peter pan chose Wendy"
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Hehehe Sorry if it is uhmm... not good enough...
I'm a girl after all😅 I'm not used to a boy character 😅😔
