am a 30 year old women I want to show how my past was and how I made my self happy with whatever I had
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Before 12 years I was 18 year old and I lived in a village in India ofcourse the cast system was there and male was the dominant in those days and women have to depend on them because they were taught like that to be honest my family was not like that I lived happily with my family my father dischss everything with my mom but when it comes to decision my father is the one who used to decide without asking my mom but they never treated me or told me that I was supposed to do things for my brother or my dad I lived happily during my 18 years old..
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it was October 15 there come my new neighbours that day I was outside and seeing who was my neighbour it seems my neighbour was a family with 2 kid a boy and a girl and she was a year younger and he was 2 year older than me he was not that good looking he is brown as me and about 5'9 and was fit (kinda attracted but not that much) I went everyday to play with her and then a day I got to know about their situation like their father left them without any word so his brother had to work for them and study and she and her mother also has to work in order to run their daily life this is the point where I got sympathy and I started to talk with him he seems a nice guy and I really got attracted to him 6 month passed just like that playing and helping them and it's April 24! it's my birthday! he called me alone and then told me to follow him I followed him and went he brought me to a very good place I have never seen in my own village it was a forest with a waterfalls and decorated in lights by him and suddenly with lots of roses he proposed me without thinking ofcourse I told yes, everything went well for a year we hide our relationship from everyone no one had a clue that we were in love! I finished 12th that is schooling and it's my step ti enter college this is the turning point of my life i told my parents that I wanna study in city and they decided to arrange me marriage and for so many days I denied and then my he came to my parents asked me to marry him since he was my own cast no one denied our love and then it's the point I have to decide whether to follow him or my dream! but at that situation I gave more important to him than my own dream and I followed him blindly.
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we got married in a month and moved to near by city because he finished college and got a job it's just me and him moved to city he used to go to work at 6 and comeback at 8 we barely had time to talk so I got bored everyday, it was one day I saw a pamplet saying free class is taken for a designing course I went there without telling him and after that class I told him I want to study further I was really in a shock with his reaction he didn't even think and told yes immediately he told me he will pay fees but I said no I'll do part time and I'll pay my fees and we decided that we will be having kids once after I graduate that is after 3 years 2 years passed like this everyday with a busy schedule and i barely talk to my own family just because I was busy and I never had or gave importance to my classmates one day he was drunk and yes thats the day I made mistake I got to know I was pregnant after 3 months and I really don't know how was my reaction I went to my work by walk by thinking how to tell him that I was pregnant that's the time I saw him hugging a girl and talking and flirting this is the point I was really heart broken I was pregnant with a baby and got to know that my husband who I loved for 4 was cheating on me with a city girl and I lost contact with my parents and got no friends.. I was in a stage to suicide and thought for whom am living? I asked this myself and was ready! but I thought what did this baby in my stomach do what mistake it do for me to kill!? I asked this question and I got an answer I didn't know for whom I lived until that but I lived and I supported myself and my dream but from now on I'll be living for my baby I didn't show up to him that I was pregnant and I knew that he cheated on me that's the time I was happy because atleast I saved my and worked really hard to save money now it's my time to move to someother country and live peacefully.. I wrote a letter that I want a divorce and left him, I moved to us and got a friend who helped me to move there,I never told anyone where I lived just because it's indian culture to make a panchayat (talking between two parties without involving any law and settling problems) I was not ready for that after
after 5 years am living with my baby actually before 2 years I contacted my parents and told them everything now I live in us with my girl baby for whom am living my life ... yes am a single women and am proud to say am from a village and I live without any male support and running my own family now I live with my daughter and I adopted 2 kids (boy) and living with them peaceful with a strong mind sometimes I feel it's hard to live but when I see them smiling caring eachother and talking to me my every problem gets solved
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don't give up in any part of your life for anyone you can get married and have kids in any part/ time of your life but chase your dream I won't say don't love , don't trust love no I won't say but loving is different from you life don't denotes you life to someone fully you will not know what things will happen.. I was strong even after I got married I must thank him for not been too much affectionate to me that is why am standing in this Position.. even without getting pregnant you can stay strong and can live for you for few years and can adopt kids! and I really have to say this don't ever leave you family stay connected with your family and surround by people and I don't have to relay on someone else to run my family! ❤️
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this novel is totally a fictional not a real one am just a teen so hoe you liked it but hope we will fight for our dream chayo! fighting!!
