I was married in the age of 20. My parents decide everything thing for me they even not asked me about my opinion. He is my cousin .Its not like that i don't like him but i don't want to get married yet. I have my own life ,my own dreams and my own lifestyle.My cousin said that he likes me ,and he promised me that he adores me and my dreams. Then he said many that he try to fulfill my all dreams .
Before marriage i want to complete my graduation and want to start my own career but nothing goes right in the way i want ,i want my bachelor life back. I thought that i have done a wrong thing to myself for not listening its desire. I extremely want to change my decision but now i could not do nothing except the adjustment in my new family . Now i am the women who always says yes to her family and to her husband .And did the things according to the others.
After the marriage , i learn that what is pain ,what is grife,what is the fake smile whose i always carry on my face.
My mom always says that you're my butterfly who is innocent and who didn't harm others . who always makes the smile on others face . who suffers alone.
But i want to say my mom that you're butterfly has no wings .Her wings are scattered and she doesn't have the strength to suffer the world curelnes.
when I were with my mom ,i didn't listen her and always says that " mom , don't worry don't take the others wolds on your heart and don't worry about my future " but now i also done the same thing when i have a child . I always worried about him and thinks" is my child fate be like me?" No , i dont want my child to suffer the way now I'm suffering.
That's the reason why i write the novel or short story i want to do something ,i want to become something .
Thanks for your reading ...
I want to say others that " please please don't neglected you're self desires" ..
