I never had a memorable childhood as we all expect to have one why because what I really saw came along with me never left my side . I used to love to sleep but that became my nightmare due to which I never slept peaceful after that . I was a 13 year old girl who had just become a teenager (a wow factor for most of us ) I was very happy to be one but that happiness was stolen very soon . I was kidnapped and take to a place that I never knew and there was a girl who was elder to me I guess she must be 17 or 18 and her name .For 2 days nothing happened all was going good , those people treated us well never spoke rudely , never harmed us and I was really confused as what I saw on TV screen was something different from the real life but those thoughts were wrong and TV screen was right because on the very next day while me and that other girl finished our night meal and were ready to sleep just then our door swung open then entered a man with a bottle in his hand and approached us . First he took a look on both of us and then went towards the another one . He Starting touching her which made her uncomfortable after I saw him touching her, I pretend to sleep but soon from touching it became something else she started to scream “PLEASE don’t do this, leave me its hurting “…. She said this for a long time . Soon there was a pin drop silence only thing I heard was her crying and when I opened my eyes she lay there trembling and when I approached her she said me one thing “don’t come near me…… stay away “ I didn’t do anything wrong, I went away and I tried to sleep but there was a fear inside me that what if that guys comes again and due to which I still can’t sleep. This all has become a nightmare, I only sleep for minimum 2 hours or maximum 4 hours and if I sleep more than that and I survive my night than I only thank God for that. My life after this is all was not going so good , my parents didn't understand that I have nightmare, they used to and still think that I pretend not to sleep. They got so pissed that they took away my phone so I could sleep but not it didn’t not work. They never knew what I went through was , I use to visit my school counselor and they didn’t know this . They never knew this till the time my school counselor told them but no step was taken.
Then I met a boy on a social media platform, and we become very good friends, he is from a different country and when its day here then its night there and when its night here the its day there . Its been a months since we met , we share, many things in common and we describe our friendship as the BESTEST KIND OF FRIENDSHIP. When I told him that I have this problem and I don’t sleep much, he said that even he doesn’t sleep for a long and then I told him everything. He has some complications. Which he was afraid of telling me , but when I got to know about his complications then I felt guilty because he was sharing my my pain as his and even going through hisq. Besides the nightmare, my life is hell . Why? My parents again, they keep on saying that I don’t study and I even don’t let my brother study. My mother says that I should die and after I die the burden on the chest will be less. From the day I was born I never gave her peace. She even used many more harsh and cruel words. I was so broken that I told him but instead of say “what can I do " ( as many say this ) he said me one “ do me a favor, hit your mom hard “ which made me laugh. But you know after listening to these words which my mom said, I started to have suicidal thoughts. I started going on the roof top and once I tried to jump something pulled me back and I stopped. The very next day I told him everything and he supported me , he gave me many reasons to live, he showed me a better life and I was happy. But that happiness never lasted long , mom again said those words amd then I couldn't take things anymore and I jumped from the roof top. While jumping i just said something for him " I am sorry "
Yes it didn’t kill me , that’s why I am writing this but I got many injuries. My brother told , tho I told him not to because I knew that he would get upset. He had a mixed feeling but my brother couldn’t help him and my friend landed up in a trouble and is okay now. Now when I am back home and I tried talking to him, I apologized him , I even said that I was at my worst to do this and I even said that now its my past so leave it but he replied me with this . “I know. I just really don't know why you did it, even if you were at your worst, you should've just gotten right back up again instead of falling deeper.” ? I miss the way he scolds me and gives me long lectures and when I asked him to give me one, he Said “even if I scolded you it won't change it” .
I feel guilty for what i didn't and now I think
I LOST HIM
Hey guys. Thank you for reading this , hope you liked it and if you didn't like it so am sorry for it . (And yes I think he may read this)
